[ even in war there is time for philosophy. maybe. Kaworu comes to the video, smiling. He is sitting in his room; on the walls, there are MANY photos of many different people he has met while in Asgard. In his lap there is Zadkiel, an adult orange cat, who is purring loudly (surprisingly, because this cat is the devil) ]

Of all the things you have learned through your life, which is the one you praise the most, the one you think of the most about, the one you are most glad to have learned, met or seen? And why?

[ and because he learned it's better to answer your own questions in order to help others answer, Kaworu will do exactly that ]

I'd say mine is rain. Since this body was created, I have lived inside a laboratory and I was not allowed contact with the outside world. When I first arrived to Asgard, it was around this time of the year and it rained. It was the first time I had seen and felt it, during an afternoon when I shared with someone who is no longer in this world. I suppose that's why I came to love it. Rain reminds me of him. Rain reminds me of many things, and each is very dear to me. [ his hand reaches to pet the cat's head as he looks down at him ]

Ever since I arrived, I was allowed to learn much and see much. I was allowed contact with others, and I was allowed to learn about others. [ yes, "allowed". Because before, he was more of a labrat, not allowed much.

He smiles softly and after he turns to the bracelet again ]

I'm very glad for the time I have spent here. And I thank you for it. I thank you for all that you showed me and taught me, and I thank you for being there. It made this extra time I was allowed much more meaningful.

[ and he is talking about himself which is weird for those who know him, but the war is ending and it's time ]

[ it has been a while since Kaworu showed his face and made a post, hasn't it? This time around he is at the park. His really pale skin is red from the sun - probably burnt, too, because Kaworu is like an albino - and it's obvious he is feeling the heat, but he is sitting under a tree in the shade ]

Hello. [ have a gentle smile, everyone! ] I hope everyone is alright, even though recent events show us it is getting more dangerous. Even so, there is still much to see and learn in this world. Only recently I've found there are small fans to place inside houses to refresh the place. [ yeah he didn't know about that sort of fans )8 ] Even after so long here, there is much for me to learn.

I suppose it makes me curious: what is the most fascinating thing you have seen in this world?

I do have another question. [ but of course. And it'll be a bit more personal ] After the war has ended and if the Gods and the travelers win, would you wish to stay in this world, or would you rather return? And why?

[ Kaworu looks different today (and tomorrow). He is white and from his back several wings spurt out (if you look closely, they resemble a damselfly’s wings); it’s almost as if he’s surrounded by light, in a way. He is shirtless due to the wings and in the middle of his chest there is a red orb (his core). This would be called Kaworu’s angel form. Or at least, how he imagines it to be. In his hands, he is holding what it appears to be an embryo, encased in an amber-like substance - that is Adam. Kaworu received Adam some time ago, but he has kept it away for several reasons. Now that he is (temporarily) in his angel form, he couldn’t help but to reach for the embryo. ]

Angels desire to become one. It’s not love, not really. I do not love my children and siblings [ all 15 of them; yes, Kaworu has children ], just like I do not love Adam, my mother - but I still need them and wish to become one with them. It's a need humans don't understand. But becoming one isn't something only angels want. [ he smiles gently, red eyes turning to the embryo ]

Plato said that long ago, humans had two faces, two noses, two sets of ears, eyes, arms and legs. They were powerful, and the gods were threatened by them, so they decided to cut all the human beings in half. The humans were all divided in two; that’s how one became two, and it left a wound. After, the gods scattered them away, leaving them to find their missing half. That was the source of human’s desire to love each other. Love is born into every human being: it calls back the halves of their original nature together; it tries to make one out of two and heal the wound of human nature.

And so, when a person meets the half they are missing, the two are struck from their senses by love, by a sense of belonging to one another. To come together and melt together with the one they love, so that one person will emerge from two. ‘Love’ then became the name for the pursuit of wholeness, for the desire to be complete. That's what Plato said.

But what is love, to you? What do you call love, and why do you? What makes you say “I love this person”?


[ a pause ] Shinji-kun, I can’t leave the room, Tsuki and Zadkiel want to bite my wings. [ maybe that should be your priority right now, kaworu ]

I understand recently many have been asking questions. I have a few of my own. [ Of course he does. It’s what Kaworu does best, after all: question people nonstop. This time it’s a fairly simple question (no it’s not) ]

What do you consider to be “home” and what do you consider to be “family”? Your home, your family – what defines it?


[ and as usual, for those who don’t wish to engage on a philosophical question, there is something else ]

I have tasted wine during the funeral. I’m not a fan, even though I was told it’d taste better as I drunk it. [ it didn’t taste better. ] However, I was also told there are sweeter drinks. Would anyone know about this? I promise I won’t drink too much, that was a onetime experiment. [ no, really. Not that drunk Kaworu is terrible; he just smiled a lot (even more) and talked way too much. He also got topless. He prefers to stay sober. ]

[ to the video comes the albino boy with the huge smile. He is in his room, which is covered in photographs of several people (some are gone from Asgard), and on the shelves, every single present he has received is there totally untouched and kept safe (no, he doesn't use the presents). The ceiling of his bedroom is black and it has the Asgardian sky, the moon and the stars painted on it. There are also awful lot of mistletoes hanging around. ]

Hello Asgard, I am Kaworu Nagisa. [ he has no idea how these things go, so he will just keep talking ] I do not understand people for I am essentially different from you. Every day I learn something about you, and it’s fascinating, but I still feel it’s not enough. We are far too different, you and I. So I ask a lot, about everything I can because I wish to know you, to understand you, to comprehend you. I love you, after all. [ he does. He really, REALLY, does. ]

But I was told one isn’t so quick to talk about themselves without the other doing the same. Conversations should not be one sided. [ but to be honest, Kaworu finds that to be untrue because he has talked and got to know about many without ever giving any sort of information back ] So I wish to try something else.

Let’s talk. Just talk. I will talk about myself too, unless you would rather just talk about you. [ he doesn’t mind! He prefers to focus on others rather than himself, after all ]

How was your day? How are you? What has made you laugh, lately, and what has made you angry? [ oh, he remembers something! ] What kind of gifts you received from the Gods?

[ Kaworu opts for video instead of audio. The particular reason is because he wishes to offer the network a gentle smile. It's needed after what happened, right? ]

I hope everyone is alright. And I hope those who left the city for a while enjoyed their time. [ "Hippie camp", that's what Samantha called it. Which brings the obvious question: ] What are hippies?

[ but either way, the point of this post is something else ]

I am also curious and would like to know if any of you knows anything about beings by the name of "Angels". The version you know from your world, at least. What you know about them, if they exist or if they are just stories. Anything you'd remember.


[ and now that is out of the way, finally there is another question. It has been a while since he has been philosophical, right? ]

And- if you don't mind answering, tell me: how many people know you? People that really know you, beyond your favorite color, favorite book or favorite song. Who knows what lurks in the depths of your mind, what captivates your soul and why? Who knows your passions, your fears, your desires? Who knows all these things about you and still accepts you, anyway? Still accepts you regardless.

[Ryoji's normally a cheerful, or at least enthusiastic presence in Asgard, but he's been gone for a few days, and now that he's returned, he looks a bit worse for wear. He looks like he hasn't been sleeping much, and his voice sounds strangled, like he's holding back tears. He clears his throat and smiles apologetically.]

Um... sorry I haven't been around for a while. I lost my bracelet, so... I didn't know that would happen to me. That going gray thing... but I suppose that it could have been worse, considering what everyone else was going through.

I'm sorry that happened to everyone. If anyone needs any help, and there's anything I can do, please let me know.

[Even if he looks too exhausted to really help out. He sighs heavily and shrugs.]

I... guess I should tell anyone if they didn't know before. Minato Arisato has disappeared.

[He turns the feed off before he loses his composure.]

[Well, Pinch is a bit of a mess. Snape's death, combined with Sophie and her presence among the hippies meant that it was staffed for the last few days by the few natives she hired. Sensibly, they'd locked up and put a closed sign on the door, but there was a fine layer of dust to deal with.

She hits the feed as she sits down, only wincing once. The discomfort's mostly gone from the procedure and it's just a dull ache that will fade in time. In the meantime, she stretches and puts her hands on the table, starting to work on something or another.]

Sorry about the shop being closed for a bit. Pinch of Sage is open for business again. I'm working on finishing up some new potion stock, and you need a prescription filled, give me a call. We'll get those done fast. Euri, Draco, Snape and for that matter anyone else with a license who's interested in herbs, I might have found a couple more with the hippies. Nothing world-shattering, but every little bit helps. I've got a couple samples if you want to have a look at them. (OOC: Names and functions pending mod approval)

Oh, and while we're on the subject of hippies. What happened in the hippy camp stays in the hippy camp. We clear? If you drank the tea, I'm not in the mood to sit down and have a chitty-chat about what you saw out there or what the spider was doing. You've had that chance and now that's done.

Lastly, for those of you who went to see the dwarves with us a few months ago, I want to talk sometime in the next week. It's important [She hopes those who have reason to know catch onto what she's probably talking about and don't talk about it over the comms.]. I've been mulling over something in my head and I want your thoughts. We can get together as a group, or you can just meet me for lunch. Either's fine.

[ So, kaworu's posts are often to ask things about you. But today, he has decided not to make it about you, as much he loves you all. Because, during the masquerade party last night something happened and that kept Kaworu up all night long thinking about it. And because his only friend left, he will turn to the network. ]

Unconditional love doesn't care for rules such as self-preservation. When you do not care for your shape, you do not care if you are alive or dead, you can forget your truths that limit you and the world of shapes you live in, for you need nothing from this world. And so you can love unconditionally, limitlessly, weightless and without any definitions to it.

I love you unconditionally, from the depths of my heart. [ though he is speaking generally, right now, he will talk about this on an individual level, too ]

I do not understand what romantic love, sibling's love, friend's love. I do not have such limitations to how I feel towards you. For each person I love individually, I can not measure my feelings. I do realize the way I love one is different from the way I love another, because each person I individually love is different. [ but because it's different, it doesn't mean it's more or less. Considering Kaworu's feelings have no weight, it's impossible to give it an amount of how much he loves a person. He loves you and he'd die for you, period. ]

But- [ this is what causes him to stop. That small "but". ]

I am closer to some people than to others and the way this connection is made is drastically different between each of you. I love Jade [ Draco, he is not hitting on your girlfriend, he loves you too, okay? ] and yet the way we connect is not like the way I connect with Shinji-kun. The level of intimacy we share is different.

[ he actually expected to feel the same towards everyone else he loves. Same level of intimacy, same level of being close, same level of attraction towards everyone just the same. And he doesn't. ]

I don't understand why.

[Well, it's been a while since Percy posted on the network. A little over a month. Part of that was due to being gray... But after waking up after an extra long sleep today he's got a perplexing question.]

So-- Uh... How many people go to sleep and get memories from home? This is the second time now, but--

[He's frowning at his bracelet.]

I'm pretty sure my bracelet was a different shade of purple. I didn't think these things could get dirty. [Or that he got his this dirty, but details. There's a more somber energy about him, now, though as he considers.]

Anyway, there's a lot of new people since I last used the network. I'm Percy and if you haven't used the ball pits and nets in Heimdall you're missing out. The slide's a good way to not have to walk down the steps in the morning, too. [Yes, he did that. |b] I don't know about the rest of the places, but anyone not in Heimdall is missing out.

[---He's not sure what to say. Really. And shrugs.]

Um, yeah. 

[ Well, while everyone who came back from the trip is worried about what the heck happened in Asgard, Kaworu isn't focused on that.

When the video starts Kaworu is sitting in the middle of an empty apartment in Loki's district. It's a bit dark and his hands are resting on his lap, so you can't really see his face well but you can see small drops of water falling down his jawline (tears, yes. Kaworu can cry, yes).

Though he is crying, his voice isn't shaky when he speaks. Instead, it's soft and also gentle. Almost glad, though very sad as well. ]

Allen Walker left Asgard.

[ that's all he will say, without looking at the bracelet. His fingers reach for it and he eventually turns the video off. ]

[ time for philosophy ~]

Tell me, what do you believe freedom to be?

[ and for the less philosophical ones ] I have adopted another cat recently, which means I have now three cats. Though I've never had contact with animals before arriving here, I find the bond between an animal and a person fascinating. What sort of animals can someone keep as a companion and how do you decide what would fit you best?

Many try to look at smaller and smaller things, such as microorganisms, cells, atoms. Many also try to look further and further away, into the dark sky, the stars and the planets. And they also try to look back in time, when there was nothing, when you were still growing.

Maybe most have forgotten to look at something that is neither the smallest nor the largest, it's here and existing now. Yourself.

If you could stand outside yourself, be it from the past or the present, would you even recognize yourself, and if you did, would you know yourself? What would you say to yourself? What would you learn from yourself? What would you really like to see?


[ and if people don't wish to engage in a philosophical question, Kaworu has another one much simpler ]

I'm also looking for different tea blends. What would it be your favorite?

[ Kaworu shows up to the network with his familiar smile. What isn’t familiar, it’s his plugsuit and the headset (it’s better than showing up naked). He is currently in front of the castle, which means he is back from his canon update. ]

Hello. I have been in Asgard before, but I’m not sure how long it has been since I left. [ or who is around ] I’m still in Sigyn House and I still have my healing power. [ since he can’t grow anything, by exclusion, he gets the Healing ]

[ there is a pause, as he looks around, perhaps trying to figure out where to go. In the end, he heads towards Odin District, turning to the bracelet one last time and smiling brightly ] It’s good to be back.

[ he does like this place, a lot. And with a smile, he finally turns off the video ]

[From where Kara comes from, because of the cylons, machines humanity made to help them, and their revolt and war against their creators, it's understandable as a result that technology suffered. People were apprehensive about it because of that, fear that the cylons could return and use their technology against them. Which turned out to be true. She has never used anything quite like the bracelet and as a result, takes a little time figuring it out. But once she does, she thinks she gets the idea after a bit of practice. She frowns at the bracelet, making sure it's on.]

Is this thing on? The frak couldn't they just give me a damned phone? Assuming others are getting this, this is Kara Thrace. I guess asking for directions back to the Galactica would be pointless, though appreciated. Because as flattering as this is, being chosen to come here and help bring colour back or whatever, I have my own war back home to deal with so I haven't got time for this. I mean, I know I'm a damned good shot, but I never signed up for this. There are cylons back home to deal with without being brought here into all of this.

[That and. Hell, this is Kara. She isn't the easiest to get along with sometimes, but for some reason these 'Gods' decided it would be a good idea to bring her here where she is supposed to just be happy and get along with everyone? Unlikely. Very unlikely. And she did not even want to think about the 'power' thing. It almost implied that they were special. And she had always hated her mother and Leoben going on at her about her being special, with her great destiny. Right. Kara Thrace and her Special Destiny. Sounded like some bad cover band or something. No way. She shakes her head, brushing some short blonde hair from her face]

I have my own beliefs, my own Gods, and these ones are not the ones I was brought up believing in. And these ones aren't the cylons 'One True God' either. If they're expecting me to be happy and grateful about all of this, they're frakking wrong. It was a bad idea to bring me here, and their timing sucks. But from what I gather, this is essentially like the brigg. We get sent back whenever they send us back and we don't get a say in it. If I'm going to be here for a while, I am going to need to find out where the bar is, at the very least. And where I can get some cigars.

Why would someone choose to go grey?

Whom do you live for, what do you live for?

[ in other words ] Why do you live?



[ and for those who don't wish to answer philosophical questions, Kaworu has another one ]

I have another question. I am currently taking care of a male adult cat, however, it seems he is rather untamed. [ actually, the cat is really mean and bites everyone for the heck of it. ] Because I never interacted with animals before arriving here, I'm not sure what to do in this situation, especially because of the way the animal acts towards the others that live inside the house.

Would anyone help me?