02 August 2012 @ 02:34 pm
What does it mean to be alive? Does it mean having a home? Friends? Material things?
Or maybe something like happiness. Enjoying life.

So am I alive? Have I ever been? I feel like I'm stagnant, never growing but never staying young either.

I see mothers and children walking the streets and all I feel is hate at seeing their happiness. I will never have children. I refuse to pass on my genetic defects any further and I refuse to be responsible for another person’s upbringing.

I see the elderly and resent the privilege they pretend to have over me. Why do years make them so much more valuable than me? So much smarter? Surely I have seen more, suffered more than some of them, yet they look at me and act like they know everything about me. Like their age and retirement accounts give them fucking permission to tell me how to dress, how to stand, what to eat? Fuck them. They know nothing.

I see men and I am filled with rage. It absolutely consumes me. They walk with such arrogance, such carefree smiles on their faces while they leer at me or the women on their arms. Meanwhile women carry pepper spray and tasers and hold their keys between their fingers to try and keep themselves safe from a threat that should not exist, from a man they might know or might not know. I see men in the street and want to hurt each and every one of them, I want to put the fear of being a woman into their minds. I want to do to them what they have done to me and so many others.

All I know is anger and 
fear. 
It's all I've ever felt.

I'm sick of it.
 
 
02 August 2012 @ 12:10 am
Look, I'm just going to be honest for a minute here.

What makes you people trust each other? I've been here for a couple months and I've run into nothing but people that put their faith in people blindly. It's just... it's kind of disturbing! Are you all idiots, or something?

[ Woah, take it easy, Painwheel. Deep breaths, you know there's no reason to yell at anyone... ]

All I'm saying is that if you trust a lot of people and make friends easily, you should step back and be a little more careful. With so many people here, there are bound to be some people who aren't so trustworthy, alright?

[ And with that, she's done. Way to blatantly mask your own insecurities, Carol. ]
 
 
26 July 2012 @ 11:12 pm
[It starts out audio, a young man's overly excited voice.]

Hey, this is like a phone, right? AH, it's working -- whoah, it's moving! It's really doing stuff! It's so cool! Wait, wait... It gets video, huh? Let me try...

[The video switches on after a moment -- and the user is as energetic in appearance as he is in sound. He throws his hands up in joyful triumph, jumping up and down a moment as if he's ready to burst with happiness.

The only thing off? He's kind of covered in mostly-dried blood. His face, his hair, and his abdomen look like he or someone near him must have lost enough blood to more than kill a man, but by his movements he seems just fine.]


COOOOOOL! SO COOL! God's really amazing after all! This must be a reward for putting on a good show, huh? A really awesome afterlife! So hey, if you guys got here by dying too, you should tell me how! There's probably a lot of different deaths in a place like this...

And, oh-- Mister, are you out there?
 
 
[ It starts with a scream.

Although you hear just the end of it, a pierce, hysteric cry as an image comes to life in this late hour of the night. The bracelet shows nothing; just a blurry image that turns out to be white silks and pale hands as they shakily try to pull it, almost violently, off.

It takes a moment, perhaps by now you will hear other voices as whomever it was that screamed, they were bound to wake people up. Still, pale hands pull, frustrated and panicked before the task is done and the bracelet is thrown to the other side of the bedroom.

After that, all you can hear is the sound of a jewelry box as it hits the floor, spilling necklaces, rings and hair ornaments everywhere.

Perhaps you can will notice an image of a girl, a soft whimper of no, no as she turns - black hair falling down her black and flees from her bedroom through a door into what could only be a bathroom.

A slam of said door and a click of a lock.

And then everything is silent. ]




[ ooc; and so, after a dream of more than a year in Camelot (!!), Morgana is now canon updated into mid 2x12, Fires of Idirsholas where everyone is sleeping, Morgana is partly responsible and nothing is beautiful and everything hurts.

Replies will come a few hours after this is broadcasted. ]
 
 
26 July 2012 @ 08:39 am
I do hope you're prone to honesty, Asgard. I fear this could get a little messy if you're not.
 
 
25 July 2012 @ 07:04 pm
Another "curse."
Interesting one, too.
I will repeat my proposal: I wish to test blood samples of those affected and those not.
Please report to the clinic in Heimdall district run by Doctor J. Watson and inform him of your condition. He will draw blood for testing.
M


[Of course, there's one threat to contend with, he's just realised.]

Doctor.
If affected, please contact. Will make alternate arrangements.
M
 
 
25 July 2012 @ 07:42 am
[While Uther holds his back straight and chin held high - because he is king and whatever he can keep of that he'll take - he looks fairly worse for wear with slight bags under his eyes and obvious exhaustion despite his posture. It's been rough ever since he came here, but even more so recently, and sleep and rest is are very elusive things.

But despite how tired he is, he's relied on Arthur's support for too long and, honestly, he's not sure he can convince himself he even deserves that loyalty so much anymore. That's why he's addressing the network.

He almost feels a little awkward, but he doesn't show it.]

How does one go about.. finding a job?

[It's probably less about it being a new world so how should he know how it works and more about him not having had to look for one, ever.]

((OOC: I'm going to go on a slowatus from tomorrow until the 9th August oops so this isn't really great timing, but waiting would have been OOC of him so at least I can get in a day of proper tagging. Do please bear with me orz.))
 
 
11 July 2012 @ 05:06 pm
[An older man, perhaps about 60 or a little older with a weathered face and a windswept stock of surprising thick hair for his age, is peering at the bracelet with an contemplative, searching expression. He has rather intense yellow eyes that lend his otherwise innocuous features a strange, somewhat disconcerting air. He speaks after a long moment in a voice with a clear British accent and colored by no small ounce of humorless amusement.]

How convenient that I should be provided such an intriguing little device. For all its tiny size, it is clearly, like much of this, not a trifling trick. To change my form to that of a human, to designate me a traveler when I did not, in fact, travel here: I do not consider myself an honored guest and I doubt that I am the only one.

I have many questions that I would ask, should anyone be willing answer.

[His lips move in a way like they should form in a smile, but they simply stretch, showing more of his upper teeth.]

It is, however, a pleasure to see that magic is an integral part of this Holy City of Asgard after so many years of it being outlawed from Camelot.