01. Primus | Video

[5thchild]

[Kaworu comes to the screen with a kind and gentle smile.]

Hello. I'm looking for a piano or a violin. I'm not sure where I can find one; not to buy - I simply wish to play for a while.

[and now that is out of the way, he wishes to ask something else]

I do have another question. Are you happy?

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Humans play instruments.

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[5thchild]

I see.

Do you hate me for being an angel? Or do you hate me because I chose you to be the one to kill me?

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I hate... hate - ha...

[ Don't cry. Don't cry. Don't -- heave. ]

...terrifying. You're terrifying. You terrify me. I'm afraid of you. I hate. I hate - being. Afraid of you.

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[5thchild]

Why are you afraid of me?

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You touch things. You say things. You ask things. You do things. You make other people do things.

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[5thchild]

Shinji-kun, I gave you the choice to do it. I gave you the choice to save yourself and all of the Lilim.

You choose your own path.

And I am glad you did it. You deserve to live and go on, and one day, you will be able to heal yourself.

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...sorry.

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[5thchild]

What for? [ now he's confused ]

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It felt like something to say now.

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[5thchild]

You don't have to apologize. [ not to Kaworu. ]

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[extradite]

...that's fine. An earnest apology - I don't know how to give it.

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[5thchild]

I'm sorry as well. I do realize that making you go through that was painful to you.

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You're welcome. It's fine. Any time. Don't mention it.

Whatever you want to hear, I'll say it, just don't talk about it.

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[5thchild]

[ he doesn't want to hear that ]

I will stop.

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...what am I supposed to say, when you're going out of your way to be kind?

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[5thchild]

I'm not going out of my way. I have told you, Shinji-kun, I love you.

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Humans love.

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[5thchild]

It's fine if you don't believe that I love you, but that emotion isn't exclusive to humans, Shinji-kun.

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How do you know your feeling is the same as the one we call 'love'? You don't. You can't.

You don't know what I call 'love.' I don't know what you call 'love.' It's like that.

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[5thchild]

What is love? [baby don't hurt me don't hurt me no more]

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-- you can't. You can't just... just ask me... you can't simply start asking me all your questions again, as if it's right - nothing happened - you're only being reasonable! You can't.

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[5thchild]

The desire of wanting one to live, even if your own death will follow. The desire for happiness, finding it in another. [that's what it means to love someone. At least for him]

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Are you even listening to me...?

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[5thchild]

I am.

I'm explaining to you what I call love. [hey, you did say you didn't know what Kaworu saw as love] It's fine if you don't see it the same way. You are free to decide by yourself and to feel your own idea of love.

But because my definition may vary from yours, it doesn't mean it doesn't exist.

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[ the littlest pause; it takes rather a bit for the word to roll off his tongue, stumbles, hard. ]

Kaworu.