01. Primus | Video

[5thchild]

[Kaworu comes to the screen with a kind and gentle smile.]

Hello. I'm looking for a piano or a violin. I'm not sure where I can find one; not to buy - I simply wish to play for a while.

[and now that is out of the way, he wishes to ask something else]

I do have another question. Are you happy?

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[5thchild]

I know of cruelty and kindness.

I still don't fully grasp how Lilim see it. [because apparently, being honest can be cruel. Kaworu has a hard time grasping that]

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[extradite]

If you don't know what cruelty is, you can't say you didn't mean to be it.

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[5thchild]

I do know what it is, that's why I don't wish to be cruel to you.

But, like everything, the way we see it is different from the way Lilim see it.

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[extradite]

...I don't like that word. You keep using it.

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[5thchild]

I won't use it anymore. [instead he will say "those who are not angels" 8D ]

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[extradite]

You... you don't have to do everything I tell you to.



[ He will regret this. ]

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[5thchild]

I don't, but I want to.

[ You make the rules, Shinji. Kaworu is actually writing them down ]

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[extradite]

What if it's wrong?

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[5thchild]

I still have my own free will to decide what I ought to do.

So far, I don't mind doing what you ask of me.

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[extradite]

What... in your head. What's going on in your head? I don't understand it. I don't understand any of it.

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[5thchild]

In other words, I wish to make you happy. [if rules help, he will follow them]

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[extradite]

[ there is a moment, a string-tense moment -

there is a moment of silence, and it seems unlikely to end. ]



I... see.

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[5thchild]

I hope you will be, one day.

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[extradite]

...there's a new rule.

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[5thchild]

Yes?

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[extradite]

Don't do things only because you think they'll make me happy.

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[5thchild]

Why not? [he will break that rule. Actually, he will just downright ignore it.]

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[extradite]

Because - because... because. That's enough. That's all you need to know. It's a rule. It doesn't need to make sense. You don't need to understand it. It's a rule. It's happening.

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[5thchild]

I'm sorry Shinji, but for me to follow that rule, I need to know why.

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[extradite]

You don't. I'm the one who - I have the...

[ silence; 'power'? let's be honest... ]

If you don't follow it, I won't speak to you again.

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[5thchild]

"Don't do things only because you think they'll make me happy."

Isn't that contradictory, right now? [ if he says yes, he'd be doing something only because it'd make you happy |8 ]

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[extradite]

No. Right now, agreeing wouldn't be only making me happy. It'd be... giving into...

[ emotional... blackmail. ]

...a compromise.

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[5thchild]

[he is.

well.

clearly conflicted. If not frustrated.

This might be one of the very few times Kaworu feels like this. And the first time Shinji has seen (pardon me, heard) him like this]





I don't want to, Shinji.

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[extradite]

-- sorry. I'm sorry. I am. But you have to.

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[5thchild]

[ a long ass pause.

Actually, if it wasn't for some background sound, it'd sound as if kaworu had left the conversation.

But he does speak, after a while]

Yes.