01. Primus | Video

[5thchild]

[Kaworu comes to the screen with a kind and gentle smile.]

Hello. I'm looking for a piano or a violin. I'm not sure where I can find one; not to buy - I simply wish to play for a while.

[and now that is out of the way, he wishes to ask something else]

I do have another question. Are you happy?

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[5thchild]

I hope you will be, one day.

audio;

[extradite]

...there's a new rule.

audio;

[5thchild]

Yes?

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[extradite]

Don't do things only because you think they'll make me happy.

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[5thchild]

Why not? [he will break that rule. Actually, he will just downright ignore it.]

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[extradite]

Because - because... because. That's enough. That's all you need to know. It's a rule. It doesn't need to make sense. You don't need to understand it. It's a rule. It's happening.

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[5thchild]

I'm sorry Shinji, but for me to follow that rule, I need to know why.

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[extradite]

You don't. I'm the one who - I have the...

[ silence; 'power'? let's be honest... ]

If you don't follow it, I won't speak to you again.

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[5thchild]

"Don't do things only because you think they'll make me happy."

Isn't that contradictory, right now? [ if he says yes, he'd be doing something only because it'd make you happy |8 ]

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[extradite]

No. Right now, agreeing wouldn't be only making me happy. It'd be... giving into...

[ emotional... blackmail. ]

...a compromise.

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[5thchild]

[he is.

well.

clearly conflicted. If not frustrated.

This might be one of the very few times Kaworu feels like this. And the first time Shinji has seen (pardon me, heard) him like this]





I don't want to, Shinji.

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[extradite]

-- sorry. I'm sorry. I am. But you have to.

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[5thchild]

[ a long ass pause.

Actually, if it wasn't for some background sound, it'd sound as if kaworu had left the conversation.

But he does speak, after a while]

Yes.

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[extradite]

Fine. See, it's not that ba - not at all that... bad.

I'll... I'll let you - you can have a rule too. There. Even. We're even.

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[5thchild]

[ excuse Kaworu, he is feeling things he hasn't felt up until now, so not only he is conflicted, but he is also a bit confused.

In layman's terms, he is kind of pouting. Maybe a bit sad, too. It's hard to tell, this is Kaworu after all. ]

I don't want to give you any rules.

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[extradite]

Do or don't, it's fine either way.

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[5thchild]

I won't.

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[extradite]

...don't make so much of it.

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[5thchild]

I don't like this feeling.

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[extradite]

Don't worry. You get used to it.

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[5thchild]

Yes, I know.

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[extradite]

...it's better like this. It's for your own good. I'm doing the right thing. Just... just trust me.

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[5thchild]

I don't matter, Shinji. [ he told you that before ]

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[extradite]

Then why are you upset? Matter or don't. Feel or don't. Make a rule or don't. Die or don't. Stop making me decide things for you.

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[5thchild]

You matter. [ hence why he is trying to make you happy and you aren't letting him ]

And though I do not matter, I still exist. I won't end my life with no reason either; just like I don't enjoy feeling unpleasant emotions without reason.

[ a small pause ] I do trust you, though.