asgardeventide | 01. Primus

Are you even listening to me...?

I am.

I'm explaining to you what I call love. [hey, you did say you didn't know what Kaworu saw as love] It's fine if you don't see it the same way. You are free to decide by yourself and to feel your own idea of love.

But because my definition may vary from yours, it doesn't mean it doesn't exist.

[ the littlest pause; it takes rather a bit for the word to roll off his tongue, stumbles, hard. ]

Kaworu.

Yes, Shinji-kun.

Don't ask me these sort of things anymore.

I won't.

[how many more rules are you going to give him, shinji?]

[ so many deep breaths, and his voice still breaks over every other word. damn this all to hell. ]

I have a... a responsibility to you. As for assuming it - I don't know how. Yet. I don't know how to assume it yet. I shall. I have to, since I was - am. I am him.

[ and another strong inhale. ]

The pilot. I'm the pilot. I'll learn to take responsibility for... just please be patient with me until I do.

You shouldn't feel responsible at all.

However, I will be here for when you need me. [he is very patient with Shinji, after all.] Just, please, take care of yourself.

...I should be the one to say that sort of thing.

[ Don't hog all the good lines, Kaworu. ]

[this isn't video but his smile widens a bit]

I will. [kaworu doesn't even know what taking care of himself means because, lol no survival instincts, but sure]

Edited 2012-10-20 22:28 (UTC)

[ That's quite fine, Kaworu, because Shinji will just - ]

I'll... write you a few rules for that later.

Rules? [wait what]

Mmmm. To survive things... like a busy day, or cooking a meal. Or carrying a polite conversation here.

[oh.

but. he doesn't know how to cook.

or do anything actually.

kaworu is just going to do trial-error]

Am I impolite? [because that's a lot more important than the rest ok]

You're -- intimate. With strangers, you have to wait until they give you permission to ask about certain things. Talk about them.

Intimate? [a pause] Why?

[ How to explain this in Kaworu-friendly terms... ]

People... don't like to talk about their feelings in such a way that it can't be taken back after. If they're disliked for it. It's so you can be - polite. You don't say everything on your mind until you're sure it will be well received.

You're asking questions that won't take a vague answer. And they don't even know you.

Though it's fine if I'm disliked.

They don't have to answer; they are free not to.

It's more the fear that they'll be the ones disliked. Can't you... can't you ask simpler things, at first? Their names. Their - ahhh. Their... favourite desserts?

They shouldn't feel disliked for something they feel. They shouldn't be ashamed of themselves. [btw, that includes you, Shinji]

What's your favorite dessert? [ ah! ]

[ ............oh, for -- ]

You can skip that with me.

Though I don't know that about you.

It's fine. You know everything else. I'll keep that to myself.

No, I don't. There is a lot I still would like to learn.

What... sort of thing?

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