asgardeventide | 01. Primus

You don't have to apologize. [ not to Kaworu. ]

...that's fine. An earnest apology - I don't know how to give it.

I'm sorry as well. I do realize that making you go through that was painful to you.

You're welcome. It's fine. Any time. Don't mention it.

Whatever you want to hear, I'll say it, just don't talk about it.

[ he doesn't want to hear that ]

I will stop.

...what am I supposed to say, when you're going out of your way to be kind?

I'm not going out of my way. I have told you, Shinji-kun, I love you.

Humans love.

It's fine if you don't believe that I love you, but that emotion isn't exclusive to humans, Shinji-kun.

How do you know your feeling is the same as the one we call 'love'? You don't. You can't.

You don't know what I call 'love.' I don't know what you call 'love.' It's like that.

What is love? ~~[baby don't hurt me don't hurt me no more]~~

-- you can't. You can't just... just ask me... you can't simply start asking me all your questions again, as if it's right - nothing happened - you're only being reasonable! You can't.

The desire of wanting one to live, even if your own death will follow. The desire for happiness, finding it in another. [that's what it means to love someone. At least for him]

Are you even listening to me...?

I am.

I'm explaining to you what I call love. [hey, you did say you didn't know what Kaworu saw as love] It's fine if you don't see it the same way. You are free to decide by yourself and to feel your own idea of love.

But because my definition may vary from yours, it doesn't mean it doesn't exist.

[ the littlest pause; it takes rather a bit for the word to roll off his tongue, stumbles, hard. ]

Kaworu.

Yes, Shinji-kun.

Don't ask me these sort of things anymore.

I won't.

[how many more rules are you going to give him, shinji?]

[ so many deep breaths, and his voice still breaks over every other word. damn this all to hell. ]

I have a... a responsibility to you. As for assuming it - I don't know how. Yet. I don't know how to assume it yet. I shall. I have to, since I was - am. I am him.

[ and another strong inhale. ]

The pilot. I'm the pilot. I'll learn to take responsibility for... just please be patient with me until I do.

You shouldn't feel responsible at all.

However, I will be here for when you need me. [he is very patient with Shinji, after all.] Just, please, take care of yourself.

...I should be the one to say that sort of thing.

[ Don't hog all the good lines, Kaworu. ]

[this isn't video but his smile widens a bit]

I will. [kaworu doesn't even know what taking care of himself means because, lol no survival instincts, but sure]

Edited 2012-10-20 22:28 (UTC)

[ That's quite fine, Kaworu, because Shinji will just - ]

I'll... write you a few rules for that later.

Rules? [wait what]

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