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[ex_surprising150]

[For a few moments, the only thing that could be heard was the muffled sound of someone crying before the feed cut. She was trying to say something, but her sobs overwhelmed her, and she found it impossible to speak.

After a few minutes, Gwen tried again. Her voice was still shaky, and she still sounded like she was crying, or rather, trying to hold back the sobs.]

I... I am so sorry. About everything. [The tears started up again as the memories of last month rush back.] If you want nothing to do with me, I understand. [Because she didn't want anything to do with herself either. But that was all she could say before the tears rushed back, ending her call.

For the most part, Gwen will be avoiding people she cares about, but they're welcomed to run into her. She's going to try and clear out her room in Thor and move out to get away from the people she hurt. Thought right now, she's unsure about where she'll go, Sigyn seems like a good plan for the time being.]

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[yggdrasilvips]

Oh, child...

[Her voice is gentle as can be, masking all of the pain she feels. The devastation in the city was hard enough to bear, but hearing the true devastation of a traveller is a thousand times more terrible.]

I am merely a guest in this city for a short time, an emissary of goodwill and solidarity, but I would have an open ear if you desired a neutral party with which to speak. Of course I cannot truly understand, but I also cannot judge.

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[ex_surprising150]

I do not wish to trouble you with such a horrific matter.

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[yggdrasilvips]

I assure you, it would not be any trouble to me. I have come with the express purpose to aid in the healing of this city, and if I can help to heal one heart while I am here, it will be a greater gift than it could ever be trouble.

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[livedtwice]

You don't know me. Not really.

But we were ... caught up in that together. I don't really have any words of reassurance, except that I understand why you feel guilty instead of ... not.

[He pauses.]

Er, what I mean to say is, if you'd like to talk, or have company with someone who understands, I am here.

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[ex_surprising150]

Yes. I remember you.

[And because she doesn't want to speak about herself:] How are you doing?

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[pushesgently]

You were not to blame. Nor were the others.

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[ex_surprising150]

But was it still not I who committed such horrific acts? These... these memories. I did it. I was used as a pawn and I did such unspeakable things.

[kuramaless]

[He'd managed not to get as upset as she obviously was, publicly, but it didn't mean that the things they'd done didn't weigh heavy on his heart too.

He was waiting for forgiveness from a couple of people... and honestly? It was beginning to look like it wasn't an option but he would still keep moving forward, because that's what he does. He's just also keen to drag anyone else along for the ride.]

Oi. You talked to people yet or what?

[ex_surprising150]

As of yet, no. Though I do not know if I can.

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[beforethewar]

[Oh. Oh no. He knows this guilt, and knows that she was caught up in that terrible event as he had been. It is somewhat like Alice told him; he couldn't let anyone else be crushed by the guilt, including people who he didn't even know.

When he speaks, his voice is quiet and hopefully soothing.]

Lady Guinevere...

[There's a pause. How does he put this? He can't be forgiving, because he was one of the people who also did horrible things. Well...here goes nothing.]

I know how you feel. Thiazi made me torture and kill people, including Natives who can't be brought back. I colored some of the grey areas in the city with the pain and suffering of those very Natives. Trust me, I know how much this guilt can crush the spirit.

But one thing I've learned is that the people who love you know that it wasn't your doing. They know Thiazi was the one holding the strings and that you're not at fault.

Goodness knows I've had that verbally beaten into my head enough times now. Please don't hide.

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[ex_surprising150]

[Though she hears his words and in a way, she agrees with them, because she know that this is what she would be telling other people. Not to mention if the shoe were on the other foot, she wouldn't be upset if someone killed her when they weren't in control of themselves.

And yet, she cannot bring herself to forgive herself. That's what was so difficult.]

I don't know what else to do. I cannot stand myself. How can I allow other's to be around me?

[ action here too because I am the King of Camelot and I do not answer to the likes of you!! ]

[pratentious]

[ Arthur startles when he hears rummaging in the next room. He'd thought everyone was out for the day, and it's far too early for them to have returned. ( He doesn't think about why he's not at the Citadel; the bodies were properly laid to rest and the blood's been cleaned, but - )

The curse is lifted, that much is sure, but a small vein of paranoia keeps Arthur strung tight as he gently nudges the door across the hall open to find: ]

Guinevere.

[ It's a sigh of relief, he's glad to see her, and that tension leaves his body immediately as he steps into the room fully. ]

Thank the gods, I thought we'd lost -

[ she's packing. He stops midstep, suddenly feeling as though the ground had been swept away altogether. ]

What are you doing?

[ action GDI!!!! ]

[ex_surprising150]

[It was much easier to pack when n one was home. She felt a little better about that. Seeing them, anyone, would've broke her, and she finally just stopped crying.

However, the sound of footsteps broke her silence, and once she heard his voice, she froze. Memories of what she did and how he was framed rushed back an brought tears to her eyes. She hated thinking about those awful acts, but those seemed to be the only memories she had at the moment.]

I... I will be out of here soon. [She refused to look at him. Refused to let him see her like this. He was a King, and a seemingly good one at that. He didn't need to be bothered by her.]

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[silverkhaleesi]

[Dany looks worriedly at her. Maybe she doesn't yet know Gwen very well, but she seemed sweet the times when she talked to her, and doesn't like the thought of her being sad.]

What is wrong, why do you have to be sorry?

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[ex_surprising150]

Too many things to list.

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[dyingisnotdead]

I told you.

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[ex_surprising150]

...I know.

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[foodshortage]

[ Oh...

Guinevere. Really, Thiazi? Of all people-- ]

Guinevere. I do not believe anyone feels that way.

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[ex_surprising150]

[She doesn't reply right away. In fact she doesn't reply until a few minutes later.]

And yet, I do. I am sorry.

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[verybigpheasants]

Gwen. [ And like the most loyal of worried hounds attuned to the voices of his true owners, Gwaine hones right in on this post. Of course, unlike many a loyal hound, Gwaine has a grasp of serious circumstances like these, and of the fact that Gwen is hardly going to be looking for a display in flippancy about what happened, so he ought not start out with any relieved shouting. Most likely.

... gods, but it's still a relief to hear from her. That's what matters, is it not? Or it's what should matter.

Be nice to take a sword to a frost giant right now. Even though it wouldn't stop her crying. ]

You'll not be rid of me for another few centuries yet, I'm afraid. If at all.

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[ex_surprising150]

[The one person she didn't want to talk to because she was too scared to do so. She didn't want to see him, or rather, she did. She wanted to see him and know that he was alright, but she didn't want him to see her. She couldn't bare talking to him. Not now anyway.]

Gwaine. How can you even speak to me so freely? I can't... I am so sorry. I- I'm sorry.

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[conquering]

[ Morgana would see the Queen burn for what she did to Gwen.

It is clear to her, a dangerously lucid thought in the mess that is her mind. She would have her suffer, she would make her parting unkind. The Queen had used Gwen and as far as Morgana is concerned - that has sealed her fate.

But she will not say so to Gwen, will not alarm her with more talk of death and ruin. She keeps this thought to herself, forces softness out (Gwen makes it so easy, usually). ]

Gwen - hush. you need not ask for anyone's forgiveness.

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[ex_surprising150]

[Usually hearing from Morgana brought Gwen so much joy, but right now it only brought pain. Hearing from the people she loved only hurt her.]

I must do something. Even beg for it.

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[dragonspeak]

Gwen, where are you?

[Straight to the point. There's no point dancing around when his friend is this distressed.]

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[ex_surprising150]

It does not matter.