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[littlesoul]

[She had nightmares again. Screaming, bloody things that leave her tearing at her mind, crying out and pleading with whatever god will listen to make them stop, make it all top.

But when she opens her eyes, she finds herself calmer, grateful even to be where she is, despite not having her crew, her family, with her. At least not most of it.

So she's awake and perched on her window, watching the sun. She smiles a little bore turning on her bracelet and staring into the recording device]

This place is strange. It gives us the people we love, then takes them away again. It gives us great gifts but at the price of some of the gifts we had...

But I think about where I could be. All the places I could be, one of them being dead, and I'm grateful that I'm here. Not every day, not most days, but right now I'm just grateful I can see the sun.

Comments

[Video]

[5thchild]

Isn't that how many things in life go, regardless of the place you are in?

Do you wish to return?

[littlesoul]

True.

[She seems to consider that, properly consider it and not just give a flat out 'No' which was her gut response.] Everything is complicated, no matter how you put it. Even the simplest things are a blending of cells which are binding it together.

Everything is always a little complicated.

[5thchild]

It is. Would you prefer if everything was always simple and easy?

[advocacy]

You wouldn't want to go back home?

[littlesoul]

Varying factors.

{She smiles a little sadly.] I like the quiet, even if I don't have all the people that matter

[advocacy]

It's probably better that they're not.

[Video]

[comeonthensexy]

...the sun is nice, isn't it?

[littlesoul]

Hello, you.

[She smiles, nodding her head.] I dream about not seing it. I dream about being trapped in rooms and rooms and rooms where I could never find my way out again.

It makes me grateful.

[comeonthensexy]

Hello.

[ Smile smile. ]

It would make me grateful too.

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[livedtwice]

No place is perfect. Every place can lead to loss.

So, I guess the way you're speaking ... I agree, River. I'm not certain I'd put it that way, but I definitely agree.

[littlesoul]

[She smiles a little, nodding her head.] Everywhere is changing and part of change is loss. We'll always lose people, it just becomes a matter of being able to survive once they're gone.

[livedtwice]

I think people usually survive, but it's handling the loss to get there that makes it difficult. But you're right, part of change ... is loss, except for those who have experienced a lot of loss. Then it's not much of a change at all, is it?

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[applegoddess]

This world can be cruel to most... Many who are here wish to go home to their loved ones... [Like her.] Others wish their loved ones will come here... But... I don't know, as you say, sometimes, it's ok being here.

[littlesoul]

It is. It's not everything. Not the world n a string, but it's all right. I can live here for now.

[applegoddess]

Yeah, I guess we can... I don't really know if I want to go back home... Not right away, anyway.

[Well, she'd rather Anders would get sent home.]

[Video]

[madcuriosity]

Those are all very lovely things to be grateful for, Miss River. And I'm very glad you're here too, if the alternative is such a nasty thing.

[littlesoul]

[She nods her head, smiling a little.] It wasn't as bad, not anymore, but it was. Now I'm here and things are different but not entirely bad. Miss people, always missing people, but if that's all, then I can live.

[madcuriosity]

Maybe... they can come here? And if they live here and we win the war, maybe you can still live here?

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[airborn]

[She definitely understands what the girl is saying.]

I like the gifts they give us here.

[Mostly the people from Panem that she gets to see again.]

[littlesoul]

I like the too. [She smiles, waving a little] They're quieter.

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[airborn]

[Rue tilts her head, looking curious.]

Gifts are quieter? How do you make them do that?

[exloserspromise]

[Yet another person Steve hasn't met, but he can recognize and appreciate the sentiment.]

It is pretty nice being in a place where we never seem to run out of food.

[...He probably could've found a better way to agree with her, though.]

[littlesoul]

{She laughs a little, nodding her head.] Better than protein. Protein flavored protein and something more interesting if we're lucky.

[tradingsecrets]

It's different isn't it? It's weird to remember dying and then come back in a place like this.

[littlesoul]

[She nods.] I'm not dead back home. I'm just...Different. I'm different there than I am here.