asgardeventide | 01. Primus

If you say that is not the way, then how can I? How do you know something is wrong, when you don't know what is right?

[He'll take that as a yes.

Which begs so many other questions, but.] No, I—

[kljkdsfs] —it's awkward for most people. They aren't used to being asked such questions by someone they don't even really know.

No one is forced to answer. If you don't wish to, you simply have to refuse answering. "I don't want to answer", "stop it", "shut up", all of those are words that can be used to that effect.

[ but to answer Allen's question ]

Understanding 100% of anything is impossible. That’s why we spend all our lives trying to understand the thinking of others. Even if I'm an Angel, I still feel that.

[...

—he'll get back to that in a moment. What he was actually beginning to say. But.

That sort of grabs all of his attention first. And breath.] ...Angel?

[a nod] Yes.

[That—

it...

—Allen. You've met dead people. (Here and, well...) You've seen way too many strange things before this world even. You're technically called an Apostle. ~~Makes him uncomfortable.~~

But.

Still.]

[... clarifying:] ...as in?

[—bear with him. Akuma and demons, commonly misconstrued. Exorcist, commonly misconstrued. Lala, of course, he's probably just being silly.

...he still has a slightly nervous twitch of a smile. Something in flexing the fingers of his left hand offscreen, trying to find something in making a loose fist.]

Angels are the Children of Adam, the first Angel on Earth, who have vast physical powers and strength. Though we are 99,89% similar to humans, we are "humans who cast aside human form"; in other words, each Angel’s form is a tangible manifestation of its self-image. That is, Adam’s children can simply be whatever they imagine themselves to be. This is our and only individuality, for everything else, we are nothing but a whole.

[He...

He opens his mouth once, and then shuts it for a time. Considering that. Focusing in on something.]

Does that mean you chose what you look like, too?

Human form? [That seems contrary.]

Only my soul is angel. This body is human.

[Ah...

Where do you even... begin...?

...]

[...]

...do you have many friends here? [He spoke of love before. And while Allen understands that (in his own way?)—he really, really does, loving humanity and having people to love, that—

Well...] People to spend time with. Have fun with.

[He has a point, he promises.] —it's important.

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[ Kaworu takes a moment. ] No. [ "friends" mean reciprocation. Kaworu also has a hard time with that. And besides, he never had "fun" per say. ]

I can spend time with other people in this place, though.

[Can?

But, ah—he cracks a bit of a smile.] That's a start.

People...

[Can he really... presume to tell an angel this? (He'd still question that except Kaworu... he almost doesn't seem capable of that sort of deceit? Just a vibe.)

It's a little brazen even to Allen, but:] ...humans are strong because of their hearts, right? Their feelings and beliefs, no matter what. [He shifts a little though, a little straighter, shoulders set.] That's what I believe.

...In my world, an Exorcist's strength is in their heart. Their human heart, even if the weapon is from God. [In some incredibly ironic twist, it doesn't even bother him to separate like that because he's never been a religious man. Ever.] We're chosen because of that.

But it's not just Exorcists, I don't think. Everyone's strong, because of what it means to be human. Their heart.

I just don't think that's the sort of thing people find in words. [Academic, clinical things.] It comes from having friends. A home. People you love, that you can do things together with.

It's the most wonderful thing.

So...

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Why not learn by doing instead of asking?

[It's—actually the most incredibly innocent question. Suggestion.]

More people would probably open up to you more if you shared it with them. [Because he's guessing from how Kaworu's spoken with him that he... probably doesn't have a warmer decorum with others. Not that it isn't kind and well-intentioned, but.

Well.]

I understand and acknowledge that love is, indeed, the most wonderful thing. I wish nothing but love to every human alive because you are so worthy of it.

However, I don't require it for myself.

[Ah...]

It shouldn't be about requiring it.

[a pause] I don't need it, then.

[—heh.]

It's not about needing it, either.

[ another pause. This time, he prefers to wait for some sort of explanation. ]

[Um—

There's a pause and some shifting around for a moment. Like he's sitting; getting comfortable. This is possibly one of the... strangest conversations he's ever had with someone he just met, but] —it's because people want to. Regardless of that.

[Simply:] And I think everyone deserves it. A chance to be happy—find friends and people to care about that care about them, too.

[But you're probably going to say that doesn't matter for you or something like that, which is why he continues.] Besides, it's a little different here, isn't it? Everyone gets brought here without their powers, so. In a lot of ways we're all the same. [Even if to him that's moot since it never really mattered in the first place. The humanity inherent in everyone.] Regardless of whether or not people decide to fight, it puts us all together.

[So—] I'm sure you'll find others that will feel like that—and want to be your friend because of it. [Since love is, well. He's a platonic person through and through. Friendship, camaraderie, feelings of family and belonging—] I'm certain of it. Not because it's required or not. Because they want to.

[yes good jesus at the angel, allen. nothing ironic here.]

That's all I mean.

It just seems sad otherwise.

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Sad? That is how I have lived all my life and I don't feel sad.

[ however ]

Reciprocation is still quite strange for me. Though, I do think I understand. The idea of being loved back feels quite nice.

[Ah.

He shakes his head a little.] No, I don't mean to say you are.

Sad, that is.

It's fine if you think so, though.

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