01. Primus | Video

[5thchild]

[Kaworu comes to the screen with a kind and gentle smile.]

Hello. I'm looking for a piano or a violin. I'm not sure where I can find one; not to buy - I simply wish to play for a while.

[and now that is out of the way, he wishes to ask something else]

I do have another question. Are you happy?

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[Video]

[likethelight]

[—heh.]

It's not about needing it, either.

[Video]

[5thchild]

[ another pause. This time, he prefers to wait for some sort of explanation. ]

[Video]

[likethelight]

[Um—


There's a pause and some shifting around for a moment. Like he's sitting; getting comfortable. This is possibly one of the... strangest conversations he's ever had with someone he just met, but] —it's because people want to. Regardless of that.

[Simply:] And I think everyone deserves it. A chance to be happy—find friends and people to care about that care about them, too.

[But you're probably going to say that doesn't matter for you or something like that, which is why he continues.] Besides, it's a little different here, isn't it? Everyone gets brought here without their powers, so. In a lot of ways we're all the same. [Even if to him that's moot since it never really mattered in the first place. The humanity inherent in everyone.] Regardless of whether or not people decide to fight, it puts us all together.

[So—] I'm sure you'll find others that will feel like that—and want to be your friend because of it. [Since love is, well. He's a platonic person through and through. Friendship, camaraderie, feelings of family and belonging—] I'm certain of it. Not because it's required or not. Because they want to.

[yes good jesus at the angel, allen. nothing ironic here.]

That's all I mean.

It just seems sad otherwise.

[Video]

[5thchild]

Sad? That is how I have lived all my life and I don't feel sad.

[ however ]

Reciprocation is still quite strange for me. Though, I do think I understand. The idea of being loved back feels quite nice.

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[likethelight]

[Ah.

He shakes his head a little.] No, I don't mean to say you are.

Sad, that is.

[Video]

[5thchild]

It's fine if you think so, though.

[Video]

[likethelight]

It's not a matter of it being fine or not. [THIS FEELS HAUNTINGLY FAMILIAR.]

[Video]

[5thchild]

Then?

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[likethelight]

I mean it makes me sad.

[Said so very simply. Honestly.]

Not because of any greater reason. It's something I wish I could do something about. Because I'd like to.

[Video]

[5thchild]

You?

[ a pause ]

Even though I don't mean anything to you, you wish for me to have someone?

[Video]

[likethelight]

[WELL, NOT "HAVE SOMEONE" EXACTLY. THAT SOUNDS KIND OF, WELL—

wow that actually manages to embarrass him for a moment.]

Of course. Is that strange?

[Ah—] Just because I don't really know you doesn't mean you don't matter. At all. [Everyone does. Argue humanity all you like, he still sees that. Oddities aside.]

Everyone should be able to have those things. [c-clarifying just for his own peace of mind if nothing else:] Friends and people to belong to, that care about them.

[Video]

[5thchild]

[considering that kaworu has no notion of romantic or sexual love and everything is simply "love", he doesn't really need an explanation]

I don't matter. I'm unimportant; when one of us is gone, another would replace us, and individuality is unnecessary for our existence.

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[likethelight]

I—

[The response is immediate, but he cuts himself short. Almost looking a little, ah—

—almost looking a little wounded.

And sad.]

... I don't understand. [Soft, a little apologetic.] I'm not sure if I could ever claim to, or how it works [if you're an angel—and he's never really known that much about religion or given it a lot of thought] but...

That's not something I can believe. Everyone matters.

[Video]

[5thchild]

It's okay if you don't understand. Humans have a strong sense of individuality, though that's what brings them pain, so it's only natural for you not to understand my position.

[Video]

[likethelight]

[Yes, but it really stings.

There's a long pause as he weighs that.]

...What house are you in?

[Video]

[5thchild]

I'm in Sigyn.

[Video]

[likethelight]

[Ah. His shoulders loosen a little.]

Mm.

So am I.

[Video]

[5thchild]

[he smiles] i hope we can see each other often.

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[likethelight]

[He flashes a slightly sheepish smile for a moment, tapping his cheek with a gloved finger.]

Likewise.

[Pausing, but—]

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[likethelight]

I'm not really there often, but...

I'm usually there in the morning. For [breakfast but who in their right mind would join him for that] tea. [...He's developing that habit slightly out of peace offerings for and socializing with the other residents, but..

A little more brightly:] If you'd like. Or if you need any help finding your way around.

[Video]

[5thchild]

Thank you, but I don't wish to make you go out of your way.

[Video]

[likethelight]

[—that is why he's offering.] It's not out of my way.

[Mostly. This is important, too.]

I want to.

[Video]

[5thchild]

[ a pause, as if he is pondering and then kaworu nods with a soft smile - not that he ever stopped smiling ]

Then, yes, I'd like that very much. Thank you.

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[likethelight]

[Brightening, then. Legitimately.]

Mm. You're welcome.

I'm glad.

[Video]

[5thchild]

Glad? What for?