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For anyone that might be wondering, Stiles Stilinski was sent home. He wasn't here when I woke up, and his name isn't on the communicator list anymore. That's what that means, right? He's gone. And he left notes for a few people, I'm sure you know who you are. You can come pick them up at the house if you want. They're on the kitchen table. Or I can bring them to you tomorrow. Or in a few days, maybe. I'm not sure. Hale's with me, he's safe. His dragon, I mean, Derek hasn't come back or anything. Um. [ it's probably obvious now that someone's using voice to text, because she's kind of curled up in bed and doesn't feel like moving, at all. but. oh well. ] I'm not sure what else to say. [ which is why the feed ends there. but first- ]

[ private to Scott McCall ]
I don't even know what to say. Or what to do. This doesn't feel real. Which sounds dumb, but I keep expecting him to come running back home any second now. It hasn't even been a full day but I can't stand it, I can't deal with this. And I can't even imagine how you feel. What do we even do?

[ ooc; open for action, kind of? if anybody wants to deal with a seriously mopeymiserable Rachel Elizabeth Dare, and Hale. ;; ]

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[ Isaac getting sent home not so long ago prepared Scott for this. It was a reminder that he couldn't expect those closest to him to always be there and not because they didn't want to be, but because that's how Asgard worked.

Although there were things he wished he'd said to Isaac, it made Scott realize that he needed to tell Stiles everything he wanted him to know, like how sorry he was for having a dumb fight with him and how much he loved him. It's why he's not upset as everyone might expect him to be because of the private conversation they had. He's obviously sad Stiles is no longer around, but he'd be sadder if he'd gotten sent home before they had a chance to make up.

Scott reminds himself that this is Rachel's first time going through this, whereas Scott has been here before. He has to make sure Rachel is okay because even though Stiles isn't here, she's still important to him. ]

We keep going. That's what he'd want us to do. He'd want us to be strong right now.

I'm trying to keep reminding myself that he's just home, that he's okay even if he's not here, but I guess I convinced myself that he wouldn't leave without me and I know it's stupid to put all my faith in some kind of happy ending but I did and it sucks. It's the worst because I know I'm never going to see him again.

He didn't leave because he wanted to, you know that. He wouldn't leave either of us voluntarily.

Before you got here, he got sent home more than once and came back. He could come back any day now.

I know. I know, I know. I don't know why my brain and my everything else aren't connecting right now, but it's making everything hurt more than it probably should. I don't know. We made so many stupid promises to each other and now they all just hurt. And Hale won't stop whining and I know it's because I created him with Stiles in mind and now he's gone so he doesn't know what to do either and I feel awful for it. I didn't think they would ever get split up. But do you think he'll be the same?

I don't know. I want him to be the same but I don't know if he will be.

I'm sorry. Is there anything I can do for you? Take Hale for a while if you can't handle him right now? Tell me how I can help.

I don't even know. I'm just being difficult and babbling so I'm sorry for that. I probably should have waited a few days before texting you, I'm just being a huge downer and I know it and I hate it but I can't really help it. What's lower than ice cream and sad music status? Because that's where I'm at right now. It's not pretty. Hale's actually being kind of clingy, but I don't hate it, so not just yet. But whenever I go back to work, he'll probably want to hang out. Would you mind letting him hang out at the pet shop when you when I'm at the Highwind? We learned the hard way he can't handle being around that much food without trying to eat it all.

It's fine. Babble all you want if it'll make you feel better. Or be as sad as you want, you have every right to be. But you're not alone, no matter how much you might feel like you are.

Hale's welcome to hang out at the pet store.

I don't really know how I feel right now. Kind of a whole mess of things. Thank you, thank you, thank you, Scott. Really.

Edited 2014-08-25 07:46 (UTC)

You're practically pack. Pack takes care of each other.

Did Stiles leave me a note?

Pack. I like that. Stiles talks a lot about me being pack, but I thought he was just being Stiles. Biased, you know. So that means a lot. Yeah, he did.

He probably was biased but I'm not.

I'll pick it up later... That house is so big, maybe you should think about staying somewhere else? Jo's got plenty of rooms at the Roadhouse, that's where I'm staying.

Ms. Dare, if you need anything - anything at all - call on me and I'll be there as soon as I can. Alright?

[Stiles would have asked him to - did ask him to, quite a while ago. To look after his girl. More than that, Roland has some idea of how close the two were, and he wants to.]

[ the idea of going on video freaks her out, mostly because she knows she looks like hell, so she keeps it to text ]

I will, thanks. I think he left a letter for you, just so you know.

Ah. I'll, uh... I'll be around for it later, then. [For some reason, the fact the boy's left a goodbye letter makes things worse. Roland knows, though, that he'll be glad to have it.] Is there anything I can bring you when I do?

Edited 2014-08-20 12:40 (UTC)

Maybe a snack for Hale? Though I could just draw him something, so... I think I'm okay, in the stuff department.

[Roland doesn't reply, just knocks on her door a few hours later holding a small bag.]

[ she's only sort of expecting company, or at least drive-by visits because of the letters sitting on the table, so she's still in her pajamas when she answers the door, shorts and one of Stiles' t-shirts, hair pulled up in a messy ponytail that doesn't do much for containing her curls. not that she's ever all that self conscious about her appearance, but right now she can't really bring herself to worry much about anything at all. Hale's curled up on the couch behind her, which is a good sign. maybe. at least they got out of bed? ]

Hi.

[ her attempt at a smile is pitiful, she knows, but that actually just makes her huff a weird kind of laugh, a "c'mon Dare get it together" ]

Wanna come in? Or I can just grab your letter for you, if you want.

[ because she wouldn't blame anyone for not wanting to hang with her right now, even for a little bit ]

If you don't mind the company.

[He looks her over carefully - harder when he doesn't know her well, but it doesn't take much to guess what sort of state she must be in, strange almost-laugh or no.]

How are you holding up?

I'm sorry... Miss Rachel...

Maybe he'll come back?

Maybe. [ she doesn't sound like she's crying, at least, but her voice is a little rough ] But I don't know if I would want that. If he comes back and he doesn't remember... I don't know, I don't think I could handle that any better than him leaving. [ she huffs ] It's not cool how this place still manages to catch me off guard sometimes. You'd think we would get used to it after a while.

It doesn't though. Not ever. Not even once. [Alice is completely able to understand, Rachel.]

But... I think, even if he didn't remember if he came back, that doesn't mean it can't happen all over again. It may just take some time, but... I think it's possible.

You have to believe it's possible, or it's giving up hope completely on what you had to begin with.

[ that makes her really think about it for a second, logically, not emotionally ]

I'd do anything to win him back. Of course I would, even if he couldn't remember me. [ but then she's thinking of what he's going home to, who he's going home to. ] So... Yes, I also believe it's possible. But it's also possible that he'd be freaked out by some girl he doesn't remember knowing too much about him, too. There's so many things to consider there, too many possibilities of differences and change. It's impossible to tell.

If he got brought back and didn't remember anything, it's Stiles, he'll be much more freaked out by everything else first. Besides, those who have left and come back before often seem to accept that people knew them.

You have to have a little bit of hope, Miss Elizabeth.

[ she manages a little laugh ] True.

Maybe soon I'll get my hopes up, but right now I just can't. I haven't even read the letter he left me yet.

It may be best to do that, then. Perhaps that will raise your spirits. Though I suggest that you have something to cuddle when you read it. Those can be incredibly difficult.

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