16. Sextus decimus | Video

[5thchild]

[ to the video comes the albino boy with the huge smile. He is in his room, which is covered in photographs of several people (some are gone from Asgard), and on the shelves, every single present he has received is there totally untouched and kept safe (no, he doesn't use the presents). The ceiling of his bedroom is black and it has the Asgardian sky, the moon and the stars painted on it. There are also awful lot of mistletoes hanging around. ]

Hello Asgard, I am Kaworu Nagisa. [ he has no idea how these things go, so he will just keep talking ] I do not understand people for I am essentially different from you. Every day I learn something about you, and it’s fascinating, but I still feel it’s not enough. We are far too different, you and I. So I ask a lot, about everything I can because I wish to know you, to understand you, to comprehend you. I love you, after all. [ he does. He really, REALLY, does. ]

But I was told one isn’t so quick to talk about themselves without the other doing the same. Conversations should not be one sided. [ but to be honest, Kaworu finds that to be untrue because he has talked and got to know about many without ever giving any sort of information back ] So I wish to try something else.

Let’s talk. Just talk. I will talk about myself too, unless you would rather just talk about you. [ he doesn’t mind! He prefers to focus on others rather than himself, after all ]

How was your day? How are you? What has made you laugh, lately, and what has made you angry? [ oh, he remembers something! ] What kind of gifts you received from the Gods?

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[fourteenthlight]

Mm, I think it is okay to just listen. . .

[5thchild]

Listen?

Though I'd prefer to learn about you.

[fourteenthlight]

That's what people do when they ask questions: listen. It means they really care about something and want to learn about it.

I'm not all that interesting. . .

[5thchild]

That is why I ask, after all.

[ not interesting? Kaworu smiles ] Do you enjoy it, your life?

[fourteenthlight]

Eh?!

Of--Of course I do!

[5thchild]

Are you happy?

[fourteenthlight]

Yes! I have no reason not to be. After all, I'm really blessed!

[5thchild]

Then, how can you consider that to be uninteresting? You are happy to be alive and you lead a good life, many do not have that chance.

[fourteenthlight]

Being alive and being happy doesn't make someone interesting! We're just ordinary people.

[5thchild]

And ordinary does not mean it's uninteresting.

Why are you happy? What in your life makes you happy?

[fourteenthlight]

It doesn't make you interesting either. Everyone's different.

Mm, but everything does. Everything makes me happy. I'm happy to sing alongside Chieri and everyone. I'm happy to meet all of our fans. Even here, I'm happy to see everything and try and help!

[5thchild]

Isn't that differences that make one interesting? The thing that you believe it differs you from everyone else?

Fans?

[fourteenthlight]

Yeah, but your definition of interesting isn't exactly right. Saying I'm happy doesn't make me any more interesting than someone who is sad.

Mhm, AKB0048 has lots of fans. We go out to meet them and share our song.

[5thchild]

It doesn't, I have not said it did. it's what you are that does. And I'm quite certain someone who has fans is not as uninteresting as you wish to believe. Also not "ordinary".

What is AKB0048?

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[cyan_maid]

[Hmm. Sam had said Kaworu was a bit different, though her exact claims were a little far-fetched. If he's willing to talk about himself, then it's okay to ask, right...?]

If you really don't mind sharing, could I ask some questions about you, Kaworu? And we can go back and forth like that, if you like.

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[5thchild]

Of course. It sounds fair.

[ and he will start ] Did you get any gifts for Christmas?

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[cryingontheinside]

You're different. Different how?

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[5thchild]

I am what humans call "Angel" and we not have the same emotional understanding Lilin do. While my kind does feel a big range of emotions, what we perceive as one emotion, Lilin see it different. [ usually Kaworu would leave this like that and add no more.

But- he did say he'd speak a little about himself, didn't he? ]

Such as kindness. For example, finding a baby cat on the streets without a mother, we would kill it so we'd spare it from suffering. Lilin rarely consider this option and instead would prefer to let the animal live because it has a chance of survival, even if slim. I admit, though, my own perception has changed with time, thus I do agree with the later option more than the first.

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[cryingontheinside]

[ now that is interesting to dexter, on several levels. ]

And if I don't believe in angels?

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[5thchild]

It's quite alright if you mean the ones from religious texts. But we are not those.

I suppose the world "alien" would fit, although we have been on earth long before humans have.

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[cryingontheinside]

[ he wants to press the issue, but there's something more important he wants to address first: ] And when you said you love us?

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[5thchild]

It is true that, before, I simply pitied you and erasing you was something I believed to be the best; after all, your existence brings you so much suffering. But I came to realize that it's not just suffering you feel. And even in pain, you can still be happy, feel good and enjoy life, or at least change yourselves enough for that.

You still hope and you have more than just "a" chance. You have so many, you are capable of so much, even when you don't see it.

For that and more, I love you with all of my existence. [ literally, since he has died to save humanity ]

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[oceanborne]

Just talk? About anything?

[Slightly puzzling, but Annie's in no place to judge someone's oddities so she'll just go with it.]

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[cryingontheinside]

My existence doesn't bring me suffering. I rather like existing.

[ despite his flippancy however, he's taking all of this in. ]

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[5thchild]

Have you never doubt? Have you never felt loneliness? have you never felt anger? Have you never felt hatred? Have you never lost something or someone? Were you never lonely?