14. Quartus decimus | Video

[5thchild]

[ Kaworu opts for video instead of audio. The particular reason is because he wishes to offer the network a gentle smile. It's needed after what happened, right? ]

I hope everyone is alright. And I hope those who left the city for a while enjoyed their time. [ "Hippie camp", that's what Samantha called it. Which brings the obvious question: ] What are hippies?

[ but either way, the point of this post is something else ]

I am also curious and would like to know if any of you knows anything about beings by the name of "Angels". The version you know from your world, at least. What you know about them, if they exist or if they are just stories. Anything you'd remember.


[ and now that is out of the way, finally there is another question. It has been a while since he has been philosophical, right? ]

And- if you don't mind answering, tell me: how many people know you? People that really know you, beyond your favorite color, favorite book or favorite song. Who knows what lurks in the depths of your mind, what captivates your soul and why? Who knows your passions, your fears, your desires? Who knows all these things about you and still accepts you, anyway? Still accepts you regardless.

Comments

[windbreak]

dude that isn't fair

i mean what's there to say?
if i liked them they wouldn't be flaws

[5thchild]

You don't have to answer, if you don't wish to (:

What do you hope to become?

[windbreak]

well its more like i don't know
does that count as an answer?

[5thchild]

Most things do, so yes.

[windbreak]

in that case cool
dunno how much it'll help you though

[5thchild]

It's not really about helping me.

I'm curious about others. I wish to learn.

[windbreak]

well yeah but all you'd learn from that is not everybody has their life figured out yet
which you could've guessed right
facing yourselves one thing, knowing what to do about it is another

some people do know
and some people really make you think yeah i'm gonna nail this someday
but that just goes back to the cheesy friendship stuff so that's not news either

[5thchild]

I know that. But before, I generalized; I didn't see any of you individually, only the whole. After I started seeing some of you individually, I understood that you can see things in such different ways. [ even if all comes down to the same conclusion, most of the time ]

Why is talking about friendship and love cheesy and lame?

[windbreak]

[Man, it sounds weird when this guy says it...]

you don't think it is huh
well of course you wouldn't

its just something nobody talks about
especially guys
if some dude came up to me spouting that stuff and acting all serious, id know he was full of it

[5thchild]

If someone said that, I think it'd take a lot of courage.
I wonder how full of it it really would be.

[windbreak]

well that's one way of looking at it
never really thought of it that way

[And now that he does, isn't that almost what happened when his partner saved his life? It feels like such a long time ago, but...]

but like if there a total stranger it would be weird right?
they might like the idea of you
but not the real you.

[5thchild]

And that upsets you?

[windbreak]

its hard to say
but
i think it only means something when you see the person whose really there

maybe???

[5thchild]

The question would be if you allow yourself to be seen by others so easily.

[windbreak]

easily i dunno
its just better than if no1 ever sees you at all
after awhile you forget, and then there's no difference between you and the image anymore

[5thchild]

You don't wish for a stranger to says words of care because they might only be seeing the idea of you.
And yet you say it's better not to be seen.

isn't that a paradox?

[windbreak]

hey that's not what i said!

[Maybe there's no point in this...]

well i guess it doesn't matter
that guy always has the right words for this kind of thing
i'm not like that. i couldn't do that.

[5thchild]

That guy?

[windbreak]

oh i mean my partner
he's really something
i wouldn't even want to talk about any of this if it wasn't for him
not to bury myself, not to pretend i'm above it all, that's all stuff he showed me

work in progress though haha
this is kinda embarrassing

[5thchild]

Is he here?

Why is it? He sounds important to you. And it's good to have someone important.

[windbreak]

nah he isn't, didn't i just say?
if he was around, wed know about it

he probably doesn't mind, but
most people aren't like that

[5thchild]

Would you like to be more like him?

[windbreak]

well that sounds ominous

honestly? i'm cool with being me
weak or strong right now doesn't matter so long as my friends know its really me

[5thchild]

But as long you don't have to talk about feelings that often (:

[windbreak]

[...!]

dude has anyone ever told you your kind of a jerk