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[To be completely honest, Rin doesn't want to do this. He doesn't want to come out and talk about what happened, but that stupid ass troll made a point. His friends won't know if he's okay if he doesn't say anything. Sheimi and Yukio are probably worried sick about him]

I know some of you might hate me, but I just wanted to say I'm sorry. For everything. And that I'm okay and that I'm not hurt or anything anymore. If you don't wanna talk to me again, I'll understand. But I'm alive and I'm sorry if my death upset anyone.

Private to Karkat

There. I hope you're happy.

/end private

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[Shu's resting in bed and he looks tired but hey. He isn't spamming weird pictures at you anymore.]

Why are you sorry?

It should be fine. If you're not hurt. That is.

Uhm...

We can still talk, I guess. I mean. I don't mind. Really.

[JSYK he doesn't know what's going on but he feels really bad!!]

[THAT'S GOOD. He'll yell at you for those stupid pictures eventually but for now he'll just try to not flip at him. Does he not get it?]

You did see what happened before, right? I'm not normal. You're such a dumbass, Shu.

[For a moment he was going to console Rin. Say something to make the situation better because it's the thing he would normally do at times like this.

His own line of thought was interrupted by the "dumbass" comment. Dude, you just hit home.

Instead of consoling Rin he just nods. Agrees with Rin's comment because Shu knows he's a dumbass.]

I know I'm a dumbass.

[Grits his teeth together. Self esteem. What is it? Shu is the ultimate doormat.

Time to forever self loathe. ]

We all have our secrets and...even if you're not normal. Even if you're not normal.

[Still hiding the fact that he's a terrorist and it's been bothering him constantly.]

You still helped me out when I was out of it. I'm grateful for it. Really.

[Gulp. Please don't mind him. He's nervous right now.]

So...I'm glad I got the chance to speak with you then.

Can we keep in contact still? I don't even know if you're my friend or not. What am I saying?

It's just...

Sorry if I was a bother to you too.

You shouldn't over do it, I guess.

[He went and said words of encouragement anyways.]

I'm a demon, Shu, the son of satan. I dunno how else to say it, but that's who I am. I can't hide from that anymore. Heh. To be honest, I didn't know if you were my friend, either. I think we both needed some sense knocked into each other, but- So you're saying its okay? You're sayin' its okay to still be friends?

[Gosh, he sounds so damn hopeful, he really can't help it at all. He really wants people to accept it for who he really is.]

Edited 2012-04-04 05:55 (UTC)

A demon?

[He thinks about this. This isn't the first time he's spoken with someone who has understanding of demon knowledge so he can at least judge the situation properly. Unlike before where he didn't know anything about vampires and couldn't deal with it then.

[A firm nod.]

It's okay. I don't mind at all.

Since you've said you're a demon there's still something I need to tell you too.

I'm a terrorist. A member of Funeral Parlor. I've killed people.

Do you still want to be friends with me even though you know that much?

A terrorist, huh? [He thinks about it. Most people would say no, right off the bat, but he's not like that.]

That's kinda unexpected. Don't tell me you were forced into it.[He gives it another moments though]Wouldn't I be a hypocrite if I said, no? I'm not one of those people who goes back on their decisions.

Just answer me one question, you still protect those you care about, right?

Edited 2012-04-04 06:08 (UTC)

[It's true. This is why he has such a hard time making friends. So much betrayal.]

You being a demon was kind of unexpected too, I guess. It feels like I'm seeing another side of you for the first time as well.

Things just turned out that way.

...

Of course I do. I became a terrorist for that reason. They already told me about the risks, but I'd do anything to protect Inori.

Its not everday that you see a demon. I don't tell everyone for a reason. Most people freak out when they hear what I am. Good. Then I guess we can still be friends.

[He just nods.]

I can sort of get that. I mean. If I went around telling everyone I was a terrorist no one would trust me. Even though I say that I still feel guilty for hiding it all the time. It can't be helped, I guess.

That makes me happy.

[Then he smiles for a few seconds before returning back to his usual passive expression.]

[He nods agreeing]

Its not that I didn't trust you guys. It was more that I was scared and afraid. I guess it was trust too. But I believe in everyone now. I have to if I'm going to last here.

I'm glad. I'm glad that we can still be friends.

It's normal to be afraid. Even scared.

You should stay closer to everyone because we're friends.

Yeah. I see that now.

That's what I was hopin for, that people would still wanna be around me. Even if they didn't I still would wanna be their friend. [He's just like that and wants to be friends with everyone regardless of whether they like him or not] I just wanna prove to everyone that I'm still me.

Edited 2012-04-13 02:36 (UTC)

You're the same person.

Everything up until now.

Everything up until now hasn't been a lie and besides. I don't think you have to prove it to get people to believe you.

Shu...

[He chuckles, closing his eyes and sighing]

I guess I don't. I did before, and I thought I'd have to do that again. But its good to know that I don't have to do that with people.

Well.

Things are different now.

You don't have to worry about it, much.

Yeah, I can see that now. Guess I worried too much about nothin, huh?

I feel kinda stupid about it now.

It wasn't for nothing.

You aren't stupid.

[Rin gives him a look, like really bro. Even he knows he's stupid]

Most people would probably disagree with you about that. But thanks for bein' a nice guy, Shu.

Disagree? How come?

[A short pause.]

You aren't stupid because I am.

Because, I'm not smart.

You're not stupid. [Not my Rin's definition know, at least you know how to spell and read like your age. Rin is lucky he can read half the text messages people send him]

What do you think it means to be smart?

Do you know?

Of course I know what it means. I'm not that dumb.

But earlier you said you felt stupid.

Did you lie?

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