09. Nonus | Video

[5thchild]

[ Kaworu shows up to the network with his familiar smile. What isn’t familiar, it’s his plugsuit and the headset (it’s better than showing up naked). He is currently in front of the castle, which means he is back from his canon update. ]

Hello. I have been in Asgard before, but I’m not sure how long it has been since I left. [ or who is around ] I’m still in Sigyn House and I still have my healing power. [ since he can’t grow anything, by exclusion, he gets the Healing ]

[ there is a pause, as he looks around, perhaps trying to figure out where to go. In the end, he heads towards Odin District, turning to the bracelet one last time and smiling brightly ] It’s good to be back.

[ he does like this place, a lot. And with a smile, he finally turns off the video ]

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[She thinks about it for a while, before giving a soft shake of the head.]

I don't think I get it completely, but... Just by being with someone, it's not just the warmth that can heal the pain, right? Sometimes, by meeting someone, that's exactly what heals you in the first place.

[When she met her Master... she never felt hurt by his words. And if she hadn't met him, she would have just continued to be in pain.]

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[5thchild]

[ he nods softly.

Though Kaworu meant warmth as "being with another", "bounding", "caring" or "loving". But he is fine with Hibiki's conclusion ]

Have you met someone like that?

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[She nods.]

...My Master. Up until I met him, I... was always hated.

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[5thchild]

Why?

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Because I cry too much.

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[5thchild]

And why is that bad?

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Because only bad kids cry a lot.

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[5thchild]

Bad kids? How so?

Why did you cry?

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People hated it when I would cry, so nobody liked to talk to me. And that made me cry even more.

But I'm too old to cry like that, so it's bad.

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[5thchild]

You cried because you were lonely. It's not because you are a bad child or not. One cries because they are hurt, somehow. And that's alright. It's not bad.

But you can try to become stronger, or hope to change what made you cry.

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--Eh?

[It's such a soft sound. While her friends had always reassured her, telling her it had been okay to cry, it never really made her think any differently from before. Crying is bad, and while she appreciated that they didn't seem to mind her tears, she couldn't just allow her weakness to be excused because she happened to be their friend. In the end, it was still her fault.

But when Kaworu explains it like that, takes the feelings she's felt for a good part of her life and puts it so simply, it's... strangely eye-opening. It's not that it's just okay for her to cry, but that it was actually justifiable.]

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[In the end, all she can come up with in response is a tiny, stuttering reply.]

I-I... never thought about it that way before...

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[5thchild]

It's alright, Hibiki. Sometimes, there will be tears. Of pain, of sadness. But also of happiness, because you are glad.

Don't think you are bad for them. The way you are, it's alright. And the way you wish and will become, it is too.

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...

Sometimes, the others said that too. That it's okay. But just hearing it...

[She sighs, a small whisper of a sound.]

...It was... hard to ever believe them.

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[5thchild]

Why was it hard?

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Because for a long time, everybody always told me the opposite.

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[5thchild]

What did your Master say?

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He... usually just let me cry until I couldn't anymore.

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[5thchild]

Why do you think that is?

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Um... Because he knows it's my habit?

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[5thchild]

[ Kaworu almost chuckles softly ]

Or perhaps he doesn't mind?

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W-well... I suppose that, too. But just because he didn't mind didn't... make it feel like it was any less bad.

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[5thchild]

Don't you think he'd tell you if you were doing something truly bad?

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--Ah...

[He... does have her there, huh.]

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[5thchild]

[ he smiles at her ] It's alright, Hibiki.