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[emulation]

How d'you know if you're cursed?

[a pause. She's been hearing voices in her head and she doesn't know why - all she knows is that they're telling her to do bad things. Very, very bad things.

(Someone forgot she's possessed.)]

I think I'm going crazy. I can't sleep, a-and - I'm kinda really scared I might do something.

I can't make it stop.

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[emulation]

My head won't let me - it's like my thoughts are too loud.

[whitechocolate]

Sounds like you're thinking too much. What's on your mind?

[emulation]

Mostly stuff, like... hurting people.

[whitechocolate]

...Oh. [ Well, that's not good at all. ] Couldn't it be Syhon putting those thoughts in your head rather than a curse?

[emulation]

[The 'Syhon' talk again?]

I'm not possessed. They would've told me if I was. This is - this is different.

[Right?]

[whitechocolate]

They? But you told me you were... unless you were lying about that? [ He'd feel pretty stupid for falling for that lie if it turned out to be untrue. ]

[emulation]

What? I never said that. Why would I say that?

[whitechocolate]

I dunno, to mess with me? I don't think I was the only one you said it to and you sounded so serious about it...

You really don't remember? [ Her lack of remembering him reminds him of things he's been forgetting. ] There's some kind of amnesia thing going around. I think maybe you've forgotten you're possessed by a demon god. The gods here wouldn't put a curse on you to make you have violent thoughts. [ At least, Sam would like to think they wouldn't. ]

[emulation]

That'd be a really lame way to mess with you.

[You don't joke about being possessed, dude.]

But then... why would they make us forget stuff?

[whitechocolate]

The lamest.

I wish I could answer that question. Maybe it's an after-effect of something going wrong with the gods.

[emulation]

So the stuff that affects the gods hurts us too?

[whitechocolate]

Well, I know we're connected to them because that's how we have powers. Maybe somebody should check on them.

The bad thoughts inside your head - they're not yours, okay? It's Syhon trying to control you.

[emulation]

How do I make him stop?

[whitechocolate]

I don't know. You mentioned a school that was teaching you how to deal with him but you didn't say what methods you use.

Have you tried, uh... blocking him out with happy thoughts?

[emulation]

... No. I don't think so.

[uhh.]

What kind of happy thoughts?

[whitechocolate]

You could think about your happiest memory?

What makes you happy?

[emulation]

I dunno - uhm. I like... I really liked having a dog.

[whitechocolate]

Yeah? What was its name?

[emulation]

[a bit sheepishly:] Bobby. He was a german shepherd.

[whitechocolate]

Okay. Well, think about Bobby, playing fetch with him, whatever fun stuff you did together.

I've actually been thinking about getting a dog myself.

[emulation]

[... good suggestion, she supposes. After a pause,]

What would you call it?

[whitechocolate]

Probably after an actor. [ Sam is what you call a movie buff. ] Maybe DiCaprio.

[emulation]

[!!]

DiCaprio? Isn't he kinda old?

[whitechocolate]

Well yeah. [ Anyone over twenty-five Sam considers old. ] The dude is a legend, though. It's totally a crime that he hasn't won an Oscar yet. The least I can do is name a dog after him.

[emulation]

Maybe you could call it Oscar and give it to him.