13th Mishmash ~ [Video]

[comeonthensexy]

[ It's not often that the Doctor is angry.

Or, well. He's often angry, but he doesn't often show it. This time, he is. It's incredibly confusing to disappear for a while, and then come back and have all these new memories flood into you. He was fine, he was better, Clara made him better, and then.

Then he had a bad day, then he came back here, and he remembered again, remembered Amy, and losing her. Again. Losing Oswin. Clara, except not. Again.

And that's all that matters.

So he's angry. Furious. There's a fire in his eyes that would strike fear into those that could have entire galaxies tremble in their shadow.

Doesn't mean much here, won't mean much back home now that hardly anyone even remembers him, but he doesn't care. He doesn't care what it means, doesn't even think that it doesn't mean anything. Because Amy and Oswin are gone, and that is all that matters. ]

Bring them back.

[ That's it. And he will not take silence for an answer. ]

((OOC: This is more on the placeholder-y side because I'll be pretty busy until tomorrow sometime, but I wanted to bring him back today. So shoot me.))

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[hullo_sweetie]

[At first River was relieved just to have him back, but the fire in his eyes and the rage in his voice told her just about everything she needed to know.

He had progressed in his time line to the point where Amy and Rory had been taken from him. Perhaps even further, judging from his clothing]

Doctor...

[The note of pain in her voice must have echoed. It felt like she was back in the TARDIS, watching him struggle to absorb an ending he had never anticipated]

[comeonthensexy]

[ Oh.

For a moment he forgot about River.

Or maybe he didn't think too much about it because he only ever looked at the contact list for Oswin and Amy. Didn't really want to... He didn't want to know.

It hurts too, seeing her. Hearing her voice, his name on her lips, the way only she says it. His name, no "sweetie", no "love", no jest. She knows. She can see it, read him like she so stubbornly learned to do.

...

He doesn't want to, he doesn't want to. ]

Don't give me that.

[ Leave him alone. Go away. He can't do this. ]

[littlesoul]

[River studies the feed with a muted expression. She sees his hanger but doesn't shy away from it, doesn't cower or hide. It makes her sad to see him this way, breaks her heart a little and she moves, fingers brushing the feed in an attempt to offer comfort from far away.]

Sorry.

[comeonthensexy]

[ Sometimes it seems like she doesn't fear anything. River in blue. It's not true, it's never true, and perhaps it's more often than not that his anger doesn't get to his friends. But this is... different. Everything she is and does has always been different. Special.

He almost crumples. Feels tired, suddenly, more than angry, and drops his head, lowers it, rubs his hand over his face. Sorry, she says, and it's funny how such a tiny, useless word can be so, so important. Sorry doesn't fix anything, doesn't change the past or the future. Where does its power come from?

There's nothing for him to say, not really. And in any cases, River doesn't need words. ]

[fantastix]

That's what I tried.

Maybe I didn't try enough.

[comeonthensexy]

They're liars. Or they're not trying enough. I won't take it anymore.

[hollowchild]

[ she's relieved, relieved to see him, that he came back after all, and that settles poorly behind her ribcage because he isn't relieved, he's lost and angry and his people are lost and there is nothing to be done about it.

the only person she knows who might really hate helplessness more than she does is him. ]

Doctor.

I'm sorry.

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[comeonthensexy]

Sorry doesn't bring them back, sorry doesn't stop people from slipping out of my grasp over and over, sorry doesn't do a damn thing. It's just an empty. Word.

[ Except it isn't. It doesn't have to do with the word, with the apology. It has to do with her, with them, with everything they haven't actually sorted out yet, everything he's ignored before but now...

Maybe she understands him better than anyone, really. That is, anyone that isn't the TARDIS, and anyone that isn't the kind of person that would starve psychic pollen because there's no darkness to feed off of them. It could feed on Sophie, he knows that. He picks his friends with great care, he said, and here he is, with someone almost-- No, definitely frighteningly like him.

He's terrified, he supposes. Could he be blamed for that? ]

[seethelanterns]

...Doctor?

[He looks pretty mad. She's not sure who exactly 'them' refers to, but assumes it's some of his friends.]

[comeonthensexy]

[ --oh.

He sucks it up. It takes a great amount of willpower, but he does; sucks in a breath, long and deep, wraps the anger in it, shoves it down and puts a lid on it. She doesn't need to see it. ]

Rapunzel. Hi.

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[sexyoldgirl]

[Not good. He's so very angry but she's not scared. Most people should be but then again, she was never "most people".]

[She can't make it better. She can't bring them back for him and it breaks her heart to see him hurting so much. He won't want to talk about it, he rarely does when people are gone.]

[But there is still something she can do. Something she's always done when he's lost someone. She can be with him.]

Where are you, dear?

[It's not said unkindly, but it's definitely firm. She won't leave him alone.]

video. private.

[comeonthensexy]

[ As much as the Doctor wants people to stay away, the TARDIS is someone that's never applied to. Not only couldn't he possible actually lie to her or try to avoid telling her, she's the one person he wants to tell. As much as he wants to tell anyone right now.

Truth is, while he knows he shouldn't be alone... He needs her, as he's always needed her. It's never different. ]

Outside the castle in Sigyn.

Old girl, why does this--?

[ He cuts himself off, pinches the bridge of his nose. ]

[Video]

[5thchild]

I'm sorry.

[Video]

[comeonthensexy]

[ He's silent for a long while. Seething, still. It won't stop, not really, not until he gets them back. Which might not happen.

But that's how it is with loss. And now he's felt it twice-- no, thrice.

It might get numb. Ought to get numb. But it will never fully go away. ]

Yeah...

[ That's all he'll give. ]

[necrowmantic]

Hey hey, who're you talking to?

[Ignoring the anger.]

[comeonthensexy]

The so-called gods.

[voice | private]

[ex_outofcontrol435]

[Oh. He's still here.

But someone else is missing, possibly multiple someones, and he recognises that anger. He can't even snap at the Doctor in the face of it, after what he's been through.]

But it's all an accident, Doctor. They can't control it. Total coincidence when you lose a shitload of important people all at once, no matter who you are.

[And then he sets it to private, his voice darkening even further.]

I don't give a fuck about whatever happened before. I'm up for working together again if you are. I've had enough.

[voice | private]

[comeonthensexy]

[ When he really thinks about it, perhaps Oswin was onto something after all, hanging around this guy. Maybe, if she hadn't been taken away, she could have made an even bigger dent than she for certain already did.

The girl who can.

Everyone deserves a second chance, he tries to go by. Perhaps he hasn't really given Pyro one.

He eyes Pyro for a while, takes a deep breath, and relents. ]

On one condition.

If I ever think you've gone out of line and tell you to stop, you stop.

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[discrepant]

[At upon his bracelet having picked up the Doctor's message to the network, Soushi felt the impulse to, well, be angry and let him know how angry he was, but it all changed when he heard the one sentence muttered out of his mouth. He could tell there was something wrong. He had heard a similar message like this not so long ago. It was made by the other Doctor, the one that he has never once interacted with before. When that version made the message, Soushi ignored it as it did not catch his interest nor did he care to offer any kind of words to him, but whenever it came to this Doctor, he can't simply ignore him.

Turning on the video transmission, without a second thought, Soushi will simply observe the other male with a rather serious expression of his own, but he could tell his eyes were currently betraying him because he did feel concern for him. That, and he was happy to see him again. He was glad that he had returned. Really glad.

Regardless, it was not the time to say or offer polite words of welcome, instead it was time to communicate with the Doctor, to listen to him and try to be understanding just like he has done for him and always does.

So Soushi will watch the Doctor, just watch him, with as much seriousness as he can muster. It was clear he was not going to speak as he was simply observing his friend, but it was clear he was silently asking: Do you wish to talk about it? Or do you prefer to express your feeling in a fit of rage without any passing judgement nor repeating hollow words of comfort, just having someone listen and keep you company?]

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[comeonthensexy]

[ If the Doctor had much of a conception of nice and, well, not, right now, then he'd think this was nice. As it is, the closest he gets is the feeling of irritated relief that Soushi isn't talking for once. He talks a lot, that man, and the Doctor doesn't think he could stand it as he is now.

What a pleasant change.

There's only one problem; hard to hold a conversation when none of the parties intend to talk. ]

So I'm supposed to do all the talking, am I?

[ Oh, yes, great idea, Doctor, encourage him to start talking right after you decided it's best this way. ]

Well I'm tired of talking.

[no_dreams_for_you]

......

[Gaara watches him in contemplative silence. Judging by his anger, and responses from other people, can piece together what must have happened.]

Your friends may have returned to your world. Can you find solace in that fact?

[He keeps his voice cool and calm, speaking factually rather than emotionally. He’s not trying to come off as cold, but… he’s never been good at offering comfort.]

[comeonthensexy]

[ Wow.

W o w.

Did it seem like it was about that? For the love of-- ]

One of them is dead and the other I'll never see again no matter if we both return there. Here is the only chance I have of ever seeing them again. So, no, there's no solace in that fact.

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[timesnewroman]

[ Oh, look, it's you. At least someone came back. Rory has seen the Doctor angry before, but he can't think of a time when he's ever seen the Doctor handle something worse than Rory himself would handle it. That's worrying. ]

Where are you right now? And don't bother dancing around the question, because I'm coming to find you either way.

video; private

[comeonthensexy]

[ And when did Rory get Amy's backbone?

Normally he'd probably keep both of them away. But he's already told the TARDIS where he is, and there's only so much he can do here, and she's going to follow him anywhere and might just give it away. He shouldn't be alone, he knows that, and if Amy was here she'd make him let her help. It's almost like Rory's settling to fill in for her somehow.

It might as well be Amy, which is the frightening thing, which is why - after a moment of thinking of how to avoid it - he answers. ]

Sigyn, outside the castle.

[pushesgently]

They rarely listen to our wishes when it comes to those they take or give back at a whim.

[But he's not a heartless man, though he doesn't wear it on his sleeve.]

But that doesn't excuse it.

[comeonthensexy]

I'm tired of their excuses.

[Video]

[madcuriosity]

[She's not an idiot, naive certainly, but not stupid. She can figure out what and why the Doctor is mad and who he is talking to. So after some debate on how to best answer this she clears her throat (if perhaps softly) and asks-]

Doctor, do... would you be upset if I came by and hugged you?

[Video]

[comeonthensexy]

[ He really hadn't thought about the kids. People he definitely doesn't want to see him angry. Because it's an ugly sight, isn't it? Nothing he's proud of.

But he managed to pull it together for Rapunzel, so he can do the same for Alice. He even manages a smile, thinking that at least she's still here. That's something. ]

No... No, I wouldn't. Maybe I need it, eh?

not here.

[asgardswisdom]

[ Hey.

Hey Doctor.






Take silence for an answer. :^) ]

not here.

[comeonthensexy]

[ Fuck you and your mother. ]

[tradingsecrets]

[Finnick seems to be in a slightly similar state. He's working on a net, his eyes not on the network and jaw clenched. He finally acknowledges the other as his brows knit and he shakes his head once.]

I'm sorry.

[comeonthensexy]

[ So many of those. Useless things, really, and they're starting to get on his nerves. The apologies and compassion...

Strange how the only one aside from Nine to mention doing anything is Pyro.

Although, maybe it's not quite so strange. ]

Yeah. So am I.

Audio - Private

[samantha_grey]

[Someone had a little episode. Thankfully everyone was mostly sensible and kept their distance... well, everyone but one. Still, that someone was back to hiding. It wouldn't last long. The reapers were making it hard.]

Who? Who did they lose this time? I know about Rose.

Audio - Private

[comeonthensexy]

Oswin and Amy, not long before I went home again.

[text]

[could_be_dangerous]

Don't think that will work. Suggest less direct measures.
SH

[text]

[comeonthensexy]

I'm doing that. Doesn't mean it wasn't worth a go.

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[charmandchant]

[ this seems a bit familiar. too familiar. ]

Doctor..

[ she doesn't have to ask if everything is all right. it isn't. that's very clear. but. ]

Would you like to stop by the shop and have some tea?

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[comeonthensexy]

No. No...

[ The anger has mostly simmered down to weariness. It hasn't gone away completely, of course, but it's not quite as obvious. He's tired. ]

But thank you.

[ Video ]

[congeals]

...I'm sorry.

[ Video ]

[comeonthensexy]

Yeah. Getting that a lot.

[Video] /pretends like this is actually timely

[bonnypiperlad]

[He'd known about Oswin and Amy, but for awhile he'd thought the Doctor'd gone with them too. There's some relief to find that part of things isn't true, because there's others here who could use the Doctor's help, but he suspects the Doctor won't see it that way - at least not right now. Not when the others are gone. So he keeps that part of things to himself for the moment.]

Do ye think they can, Doctor?

[Video] /pretends away!

[comeonthensexy]

[ No, he does see it that way. Some part of him that's being a bit overshadowed at the moment, but he does. ]

I-- I don't know.

[ Something he's refused to admit to anyone else. That maybe the gods aren't quite so big liars as he'd like to believe right now. Honestly, he wouldn't be surprised if it was really difficult to keep people here; he's not stupid, he knows.

He just gets stupid when angry. And doesn't want to think he might not be able to do something.

Which he honestly doesn't think is a bad thing. ]