Fifth Snowfall ❄ All men lie when they are afraid [video]

[starktomboy]

[She knew it would happen some day. She'd understood from the beginning how easily she could lose everything again when Sansa and then Robb had left her. Gendry, Hot Pie, Jaqen... everything was taken from her back home too, as time passed. Part of her wants to just curl up and cry some more, wishing the gods of this world would bring her family back to her. She'd made the mistake of letting herself become comfortable here, happy even. Despite all the fighting recently and the wariness and her awkward way of meeting people and making friends, she'd been happy. She wouldn't get to hear Jon greet her anymore with a ruffle of her hair and his voice in her ear saying “little sister”. Even Ghost was gone too, returned to the Wall with her brother.

She had no more tears left to cry by the time she'd turned her bracelet on. Her gray eyes were a bit red, cheeks finally drying as she wipes at them furiously every so often without realizing it. Nymeria could be seen, trying to worm her way into pressing her snout against Arya's cheek, batted away once only to try again with a huff in response to being rejected by her girl.]

Jon Snow has returned to Westeros. I – I won't be at the Citadel for a little while. I apologize.

[Sword fighting would not fix this hurt. She needed to grieve, to forget for a while. Without saying another word, she turns her bracelet off again to curl up with her wolf.]

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[starktomboy]

That's stupid.

[She meant that in the nicest way possible, of course.]

Why should you settle for memories?

[She wanted more than memories. She wanted to make the people who hurt her hurt more.]

[oblivionize]

[She's pauses at that. Maybe it's stupid, but it's right to her. So it's soft and sad when she responds.]

When I return my existence will never have been. But, even so, its my memories that make me Xion. I'd love very much to see the people I love once more, but if I remember them... Then we'll always be connect.

[starktomboy]

[Arya regrets her rudeness already, bowing her head a bit.]

Sorry... I can relate a bit, though I'll still be alive when I go back. Everyone else is gone.

[oblivionize]

[Xion shook her head. She felt bad for the girl. She was never supposed to exist and she was always on borrowed time. It was different .]

I'm sorry, too. [She quiets a moment.] I learned all of hearts are connected. So maybe we can't see them... but we should always try our best to do what we can.

[starktomboy]

What if we don't know what our best is?

[She feels like all she's done is make poor choices in a vain attempt to see her family again. None of it had helped. She couldn't save any of them.]