asgardeventide | 005 ♒ Video

Good day, Asgard.

[The violet sea troll offers a surprisingly friendly wave, sitting at the oak desk in his room in the Baldr welcome hall. He twirls a feather quill in his other hand as he speaks.]

I came across a grubdisc I had nearly forgotten, an' it reminded me of a question I'd been dyin' to ask you.

[He pauses for emphasis, leaning in to smirk conspiratorially.]

Has anyone here evver felt personally vvictimized by Sollux Captor?

If the answwer is yes, an' I suspect it wwill be, I havve a proposition that you wwill find mutually beneficial.

An' Sol, if you're fuckin' eavvesdroppin' like the slitherbeast in the grass that you are, you should knoww that I intentionally didn't hide this little message from your repulsivve mutant eyes because I wwanted you to knoww just howw many people wwish you wwere fuckin' dead. Maybe you could do them a favvor an' take care a' that little predicament a' your still bein' alivve all on your owwn.

[Didn't hide it, couldn't hide it. Same difference. Either way, he disconnects the video shortly after with a laugh.]

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Why don't you want to be loved?

Allowwin' yourself to be lovved is a wweakness. People betray you. You shouldn't let them get close enough to do any damage.

If that's what you believe, that's all there will be, even if it's not entirely true.

It's normal to want run from pain. But after running for so long you will realize that pain will still be felt and that's all you will feel. You will forget how to fade that pain, and you will believe that life is painful, when it's not.

[ a gentle smile ] It's true you will always hurt one way or another, but you can fade away the pain, you can forget it, with those things called "bonds".

Through bonds you can feel happiness, you can be loved. Because you are worthy of it. You are worthy of love.

That's why I love you.

An' wwhat is no one wwants to form those "bonds" wwith you? Wwhy set yourself up to be hurt by them?

That's just fuckin' idiotic. An' I, Eridan Ampora, am not an idiot.

[He snarls, leaning closer.]

YOU WWILL STOP SAYIN' THAT! Or I wwill RIP your limbs off!

Are you sure no one wants to? Or have you simply shut yourself off from everyone else and no longer give them a chance?

[ he still smiles. Threats do not work on Kaworu. Not even actual maiming. ] Why does it upset you so much when I say it?

Because I am not fuckin' "lovveable!" I am dangerous! Vviolent! I am Eridan Ampora!

[He huffs, crossing his arms over his chest.]

I didn't say you weren't any of those things.

I said you are worthy.

Yeah wwell thanks for that, but I think you should find someone else to harass.

Someone wwho buys your horsebeast shit.

It's fine if you don't wish to accept it. The feeling exists nonetheless.

Then STOP feelin' it. NOWW!

I can't.

Yes, you can! It's fairly fuckin' simple, actually!

[Eridan's reaction is violent, visceral.]

[ Sorry, Eridan. But he can't. And he won't.

So Kaworu just offers him a gentle smile. ]

If you avoid others, you will never be hurt by them. But you will lead a life of loneliness, and you will only feel pain because of it.

It's still my fuckin' choice. Not yours.

[Eridan doesn't know how to deal with someone he can't push away.]

An' I don't need some glubbin' stranger preachin' at me!

I'm not preaching, I simply hope for you not to be lonely. It is your choice to be so, yes.

But my feelings can't be changed. You may reject them if you wish to. [ but like he said, they will still be there ]

Wwhatevver. Clearly I'm not goin' to be able to talk any sense into you.

So just stay the fuck awway from me.

If that's what you wish for, I will.

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