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[It's been a while since he's shown himself on the network. Shu's been dwelling on things way too much lately and he needs to talk things out with someone. Anyone really. Being taken off the battle front gave him some time for self reflecting. Back home he wasn't fortunate enough to have this sort of free time so he may as well take advantage of it.]

What do you think about when the people you care for leave one after another?

You can't go back to the things were before. It's impossible.

There's only one option for you left. To move forward.

How do you cope with that? How do you move on? It's different for everyone, I guess.

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[1.If you're awake at 3 am you can find Shu laying in a patch of grass near the Gefion Park in the Baldr district. Bumming around late at night stargazing.

He couldn't sleep at all and going outside didn't seem like a bad idea. Given everything that happened to him back at home, he wasn't really at fault for being so uneasy. The amount of stress he gained within a few weeks was too much for him to handle. Serious issues piled up and he was forced to sort them all out as a leader. For once it was nice to finally be able to sit down and relax.

There were some headphones in his ear and he was listening to the band Egoist. The vocalist was Inori Yuzuriha and he happened to be a big fan of her voice.

With that being said attempts at calling out to him using your voice might end up in failure. Music's too loud. Try shaking or bothering him.

2. Alternatively if anyone caught Shu while he was leaving his room/home at Odin you're free to catch him around wandering too. ]

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[Diva is on the prowl tonight, because today her fangs started to ache. That was always the tell-tale sign that it was time to go find a meal, as light as that ache was. She had no reason to deny herself a meal here, so there was no reason to wait. Though she may have promised to not kill her meals anymore purely out of an amusing promise, that didn't mean that she wouldn't take her fill—because really, as petite as she was, an average man had enough blood for her to be sated and for him to live.

She's stalking through Gefion Park, hoping to find someone wandering, but seeing someone laying in the grass... That's not bad either. She approaches with silent footsteps (because she had discarded her shoes earlier), but within a few feet, she realizes that she recognizes this loser. And all the tension she had built up from preparing to feed leaves her body with a sigh. But that doesn't mean she won't kind of take out her disappointment on him. SORRY SHU.

Diva closes the distance with less caution, though still out of Shu's immediate view, until she nudges his head with her foot. Be proud of her, she was tempted to kick him in the head.]

[That sort of hurt actually. Then again it could be worse. So he took out the headphones glanced at Diva. He look like he'd just seen a ghost. Only because he hadn't seen Diva for so long that he found it hard to believe that she was still here.

That only lasts for a moment as he covers it up promptly with a rather stoic expression. Gai would not show weakness! Copying Gai poorly is all he can do at this point. Ditto.]

...Diva?

What are you doing?

[He repositions himself in a sitting position Where he could see Diva properly.]

I should be asking you that, shouldn't I?

[She puts her hands on her hips with a shrug] You almost got made a meal, you know. Again.

I'll be fine.

[Then he shows her that his arm was robotic and he wouldn't care if she tried to bite it. That would probably suck for her.]

You can't eat metal, can you? I'd be surprised if you could.

[She makes a sound of surprise, her hands slipping off of her hips. Diva kneels to sit on the grass with him, reaching out to touch the arm curiously.]

...What is this?

Why would you want to go back to the way things were? There isn't really much point if you ask me.

[She had to do this and at one point, she'd wanted to give up. More than anything, she'd wanted to give up. But she didn't; she couldn't. She moved forward, the same as she always did. She picked up the pieces of her shattered career and simply moved on.]

How do you move on? You just decide that it isn't worth dwelling on and move on with your life in the only way you know how.

You're right, there is no point.

[Moving on wasn't easy. Constantly looking back and dwelling on the past holds you back from moving on. He knew this well.]

I already know what I have to do. [Keep trying to be something he's not. Gai happened to be much stronger than he was so all he could do was emulate that strength. Even so he needed it to go forward.]

Gai wouldn't show weakness in front of others. He would keep going no matter what happened and do everything that needed to get done. I need to do the same.

[ honestly, the first thing she thinks of when she sees the message.. it's when Amakusa left, the first thing that had that much of an impact on her. or even the first time Battler disappeared for a little while only to return.. it makes her feel grateful it's just text. ]

What does it matter what you do? You can't change anything about the fact they're gone, no matter what.

[Frankly 3AM is a fine time to be out for a walk as far as Shiki was concerned... Well okay she didn't really have a reason to, but old habits were hard to break. In any case, she's passing by the park when she spots Shu. At the very least, she was pretty sure it was Shu. Just what was he doing out lying around at this time...

Ah, she has an idea. (ITT: Shiki, your idea of a joke kind of sucks. c_c)

She starts walking up to him as stealthily as she can; sure she can't tell that he's listening to something, but just in case. Of course in hing sight this isn't really fair...

The moral of this lesson is SHU PLEASE BE ON YOUR GUARD BEFORE SHE KILLS YOU.]

[None of it happened here in the city, but it still mattered to him. It's text because he doesn't want to cry all over voice messages. It works out for both of them.]

Back home Gai's dead.

The one who killed him was me. Not just him, Hare and Jun are also dead. They're all gone now. I'm tired of losing people all the time.

[He's a bit more honest to Ange since he's known her for a long time now. If it were anyone else he'd close himself off more. ]

You're the same as me, aren't you?

[ So that's what changed too, except for the whole arm deal and his attitude change? Although.. it explains a lot, in a way. Her family dying was exactly what changed her too, what took her happiness away, so.. ]

Yeah. [ she swallows. ] We're the same.

[ even if it would have been better for him to not have had to endure all of this. ]

I'm sorry to hear all of that though.

moving on can really suck but that is how things progress. if you get hit and fall on the ground you arent going to just lay down and die there are you?

[He won't care if he dies here. THERE'S NO POINT. He'll just come back anyways.

He'd been feeling uneasy for the past few days and he couldn't help but glare at the darkness. Of course, he didn't know Shiki was there and he was still listening to Egoist. But every so often his expression would shift between looking shocked and emotionless glares. Eventually he gives up and looks a little sullen. Not really in the mood for anything.]

No, I won't. There's someone I need to be with and I can't do that.

I won't abandon her and give up. How about you?

[Shu you are so emo good lord... Also you brood harder than Shiki ever did that is both sad and very concerning please seek help. In any case soon enough she's literally behind his head. Taking her knife out silently and crouching, she has it right by his neck in an instant.]

Yo. [SHIKI PLS DON'T BE SO CASUAL ABOUT THIS!!]

It takes time, but it's something you have to do. Nothing gets done if you dwell in things for too long, but don't rush yourself either.

It's different for everyone, so you're right.

[He realized he took advantage of the people he cared about too much. Constantly relying on them so often for little things. When they were gone it hurt him so much he didn't know what to do.

There's a huge awkward delay and he replies an hour or two later. After he'd finish crying to himself about everything. There were only a few moments where he'd allow himself to be so weak. ]

I have to get stronger. I don't want to lose anyone anymore.

[ .. Normally Ange would find it weird for someone to reply so much later, but.. well, this is Shu we're talking about here, not like he hasn't done it before. So she just does something else in the meantime, really, until she spots the next message. ]

You know.. This will probably sound harsh, but you should know that sometimes even when you're strong you can't stop things like that.

[He pulls away for a moment. Too close for comfort.]

My arm's gone for good. This is a replacement.

A friend helped me out.

[Shion deserves the credit for that.]

It sounds too simple when it's worded in text. Actually doing it is something else.

[She's reminded of James, suddenly, and she frowns. She doesn't pursue the physical contact or ask "how," she just looks at Shu. Her expression can't really be called sympathetic either, despite the question.] Are you alright?

[Sheryl stops to consider this. He seems to be living in someone else's shadow.]

But living in another's shadow isn't the right path to follow either.

Everything is easier said than done.

Are you in this situation?

I'm wrong about a lot of things. But that's why I have to get stronger and move on.

[It was rare for him to have time to sit down and actually self reflect. Back then there were far too many things that needed to be done. Having too much free time was definitely unsettling and made him think about his own experiences every now and then.]

I had to do the same but you have to follow your own path.

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