asgardeventide | D539 (before the battle)

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D539 (before the battle) | Voice

... ugh.

[Ellie sounds... out of it. Not herself. Distracted, like she's been hit a few too many times in the head, or is somehow drugged up. She's finding her way but she's slow, like she's having to think about every word before she says it.]

So. Question -- how many of you guys have been in two places at once?

I think I was back in my... my world. For a while.

But I was here, too.

Anybody?

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That's what I think, too.

[Even though it's hard sometimes, knowing that all her experiences here will be forgotten eventually...]

Things aren't really bad where I'm from, but... I learned a lot of things here that I don't think I'll ever get to once I go back.

Yeah, I kinda get what you mean. I didn't have a chance to... I dunno. Become this person.

Remembering is weird, because it's like waking up all over again. I'm different.

I always feel so useless at home, but... here, I know so much more. I can really help people.

I wish... I could take those memories home, too. If I did, maybe I could help people there, too...

[If she could just remember all about Asgard's magic, never needing sacrifices like the type her own world uses...

Maybe, just maybe, she could help find a magic that truly didn't require sacrifices.]

How come you feel like you can't help people?

[Maybe others' lives are different from her own. Ellie has felt powerless, often, but never like there wasn't something she could do.]

Because I don't know enough, there. And all my friends...

...They have a lot of troubles that I don't know how to help. Not when I'm there.

Don't worry. This isn't the only place you can learn stuff to help.

Besides, you can't worry about what you can't do.

It's not just what I can't do, though. It's... not being able to help the people who need it.

[She wants to do something for her friends, at the very least.]

...I'm sorry. I shouldn't complain, but... they all looked out for me so much, I--

I want to be able to do something in return, too.

Have you thought about what you can do?

...The only thing I know how to do at home is make tea.

[Her tone is too serious to be an exaggeration - or at least, not a knowing one.]

Bullshit.

I bet you're good at -- listening when someone needs to talk.

Even if I listen though... I don't ever have anything to say. It's not really that helpful...

Are you kidding?

Sometimes that's the thing people need more than anything.

-!

E-even though I'm not doing anything...?

[At least, that's how she sees it.]

You are. You're making people feel like they matter.

...But they already do. [Matter, that is. Of course everyone matters; why wouldn't they?

...Says the girl who had a really hard time accepting as much about herself.]

...It really helps?

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