[ Allison does smile slightly at Scott's first response, though she can't say she's too surprised to hear him say that; after all, it's basically what he said when she actually broke up with him. She is, however, very thankful to hear that he still feels the same way, even if she still feels selfish for feeling that way. This conversation seems to be helping quell some of her various feelings, too, which is good; perhaps she should've done this a long time ago.
Not the kissing, necessarily, but she definitely won't complain about that.
Admitting she's scared is huge for her and the only reason she said it, the only reason she felt comfortable enough to do so, is because she's talking to Scott. She feels like she can tell him anything and this conversation - leading up to her admitting that - drove the point home. Maybe that's why she hasn't really talked to anyone else about this, and maybe it's why she's been so hesitant to try to find someone; aside from Lydia, she doesn't exactly trust anyone as much as she does Scott. (Isaac's getting there much more rapidly than she ever thought possible, but she and Scott have a better, stronger history than her and Isaac, so there are additional layers between them.)
She moves into the hug easily enough, both of her arms wrapping around Scott. Her fingers curl around the back of his shirt and she buries her nose and mouth into his shoulder for a moment, soaking up the warmth and comfort he's offering. It's painful, almost, because she hasn't realized just how desperately she missed him until today, but she doesn't want to let that cloud her decision making. She needs to know, with 100% certainty, that she can date him - and Isaac, if that's how it happens - without losing herself in them. ]
You have no idea how glad I am to hear that, [ she finally says once she shifts and rests her chin on his shoulder. ] I don't know what I'd do if I ever lost you completely. [ Sure, she wants space from him, but knowing he's okay and out there somewhere would count as still being around. In her eyes, anyway. ] Either of you.
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Not the kissing, necessarily, but she definitely won't complain about that.
Admitting she's scared is huge for her and the only reason she said it, the only reason she felt comfortable enough to do so, is because she's talking to Scott. She feels like she can tell him anything and this conversation - leading up to her admitting that - drove the point home. Maybe that's why she hasn't really talked to anyone else about this, and maybe it's why she's been so hesitant to try to find someone; aside from Lydia, she doesn't exactly trust anyone as much as she does Scott. (Isaac's getting there much more rapidly than she ever thought possible, but she and Scott have a better, stronger history than her and Isaac, so there are additional layers between them.)
She moves into the hug easily enough, both of her arms wrapping around Scott. Her fingers curl around the back of his shirt and she buries her nose and mouth into his shoulder for a moment, soaking up the warmth and comfort he's offering. It's painful, almost, because she hasn't realized just how desperately she missed him until today, but she doesn't want to let that cloud her decision making. She needs to know, with 100% certainty, that she can date him - and Isaac, if that's how it happens - without losing herself in them. ]
You have no idea how glad I am to hear that, [ she finally says once she shifts and rests her chin on his shoulder. ] I don't know what I'd do if I ever lost you completely. [ Sure, she wants space from him, but knowing he's okay and out there somewhere would count as still being around. In her eyes, anyway. ] Either of you.