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➤ track 01 ➤ text | Day 348

[(ooc note: Backdate-ish/before Tardis' entry.)

This text will show up moments after Shinji comes across the body.

If anyone came across them in the Loki district,you'd see the distant, lifeless look in Shinji's eyes. If there were tears, Shinji didn't feel them. If it wasn't for the open chest on Kaworu's body, an apparent sign that the gentlemen came, anyone would have probably thought Shinji (who had Kaworu's blood all over himself) did this.

You'll come to know that Shinji can be a boy of a few words, sometimes. The text was awfully straight to the point. ]

Kaworu Nagisa is dead.

I'm so sorry. If only I had done something...

[Shinji wasn't one who wanted to use the network so often, but.. Kaworu is so well-liked by people here. Shinji felt he had to apologize for not doing anything; that it was his fault this happened.]

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[Oh no... Not only there are more and more victims, but Shinji had found one of them! And his words over it were almost the same she released on the network itself when she found Naegi dead.]

... Shinji, please don't say that. Don't blame yourself...

[He shook his head at that though she couldn't see.]

It could have turned out differently if I stayed awake...

[Or ~~worse~~ better yet.]

I should have faced those things, instead.

No, it would have not been better... You would have died. And whenever someone dies, someone will suffer.

[Well, considering he killed someone, who understood him more than anyone else, Shinji knows that fact all too well.

The only thing that's keeping him from having too huge of a meltdown is the fact that you're ok, it seems... ]

But no one would suffer if it was me. A lot of people care about Kaworu-kun, after all.

So it'd be ok, Ninian-san. [In his logic, at least.]

[She is... mostly. Having helped with the boxes and seeing that Naegi is back helped lots. And since Shinji here and mostly alive, she's feeling more relieved.]

Are you saying nobody cares about you...?

That isn't true. I would be sad if you died.

I'm sorry. Kaworu didn't deserve to die like that.

My best friend was killed too.

We have to stop those monsters.

[He shook his head. Indeed Kaworu didn't deserve it.]

I wish it had been me, instead. [Because after killing Kaworu with his own hands, he thinks the angel has had enough dying.]

Is your friend the reason why you want to stop these things? [Like the reason or there's more to it?]

I feel the same way. [ He also wishes it would have happened to him rather than his best friend. ]

I'd still want to stop them, even if it hadn't happened to him. Innocent people are being killed. I want my voice back. I want to be able to tell my girlfriend I love her again.

[ He couldn't help but blink at that. To do this because you want to and not just because it happened to someone relevant to you... It was an odd sentiment for someone ~~who can be a tad selfish~~ like Shinji to understand that.

So it wasn't that he disagreed with you. He just understood some of it. (He wants his voice back, too, after all.) So he couldn't help but ask of the last bit, ]

Is telling someone, like her, those words really that important?

[Sorry for the dumb question, Scott. Shinji's almost never been told those words except one time.]

Yeah. I mean, they're important to us. She knows how I feel about her and it's not like I've never told her before, but I don't want the last time I said I loved her to be the actual last time. Plus I miss the sound of her voice.

D --> Damnit
D --> I will destroy every bo% in this city

[Oddly... relevant.]

[He had a hunch for the anger in this person's text, though they were mute.

That wasn't directed to him. (He doesn't think so...), but Shinji couldn't help but still flinch at the text, a bit.]

I'm sorry. [He says it again. Pardon Shinji's apologetic nature, Equius. sob.]

I know let it happen. So... I could help find the boxes, if you'd like.

[ He honestly doesn't know if he wants to leave the bloody house and the body all alone. But. he still offered.]

D --> You are not a combatant
D --> You will only prove a liability

[That and he'd already recognized his rage at the moment would be dangerous if Kaworu cared about teh boy. Better not to be close.]

[As disheartened as he looked, Shinji won't argue about that. He isn't one who argues for long, after all. ~~He'll see what he can he do about this, then.~~

He's not underestimating your abilities, by any means, when he asks,]

Will you be able to find them? [Will YOU be fine?]

D --> No bo% will escape my wrath
D --> And when the last bo% in the city is crushed beneath my fists
D --> They will hear me scream

And what would that have been?

[You could say that Shinji did a double take at that for a second. He didn't think anyone would actually ask.

He thought about it and...

Honestly? He doesn't know, John. ~~He doesn't fight. At least not without his Eva, but that isn't here. And it never will be for as long as he's here.~~

But. ]

Just. Anything. ~~[More like, "I don't know, but it's still my fault."]~~

If I hadn't slept, he wouldn't have answered that door.

Would you have?

...Maybe.

If it meant his safety.

[His logic. I'm sorry, John... ~~A depressed 14 year old isn't the most rational being.~~

The gentlemen were only after one or two people at a time, right?]

He probably thinks the same then.

Not that it would have guaranteed his safety.

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