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With all the collective knowledge gathered here over the seasons, each individual is likely to have questions to which there is still no clear answer. I'm sure it would be the case even within our own worlds, where there are things about yourself you don’t want others to know.

With that, I ask one such question.

If you knew one day you would no longer be yourself, and carry out the will to become a ruthless killer, how would you stop yourself? No matter how hard you fought to fight against or prepare for that fate, it was for nothing because the new you would be able to tear those preparations down easily?

Some have claimed that arriving in this city is nearly the same as having a blank slate; regardless of that, there are inherit parts of yourself that will follow you no matter what. Good deeds or bad, whatever bonds you may have formed, what if one day you decide you want it all gone by using that very same trust against them?

Because you have that trust, no one would ever suspect it was you and this new mentality will have erased any attachments that would get in the way of fulfilling that goal. They are your unknowing puppets until you no longer have use for them, and then they are disposed of without tracing back to you.

What would you do if you knew this fate was fast approaching you?

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I... I and my brother once thought the same, and were about to take our own lives. But we were given our hope back, and then a chance to help make things right after our mistake, even with all the consequences that followed...

[... Ninian—]

And everyone was aware of what it was you did, were in agreement with the outcome that you would still live?

.... Yes, sir or madam. They knew how weak I had been, how deep in trouble we both were, and how risky it was to take us two in. And yet they were kinder to us than anyone had been in a long time, and never blamed us for anything...

You were very fortunate, then. I don't think there are many who would have encountered the same kindness you did.

... At times, I still doubt I ever deserved such a kind treatment from any of them. Not after what my weakness brought to them....

[Specially from him, from Lord Eliwood. But...]

But now, I want to believe that if I do my best to atone for what I've done, I can begin to mend the present and the future. Mine, theirs, yours...

Weakness can refer to many things, who is to say that we all see it the same and couldn't just as easily be called strength?

And to say you would do what you can for me, while noble, may still come back to haunt you. Are you prepared for that responsibility?

... Yes, you could say I'm ready. I dream of worlds that are built on peace instead of war, and even with this bloody struggle I have been given kindness, so I do not want you or any Traveller to come under harm in any way.

[And just like that, the feed becomes a private one.]

Such a proclamation borders on recklessness, Ninian.

[ ... Oh! She cannot help gasping in surprise... she always saw Eyes as being calm and collected, and never thought he'd be in such a turmoil.]

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[She swallows and tries to re-assemble her train of thoughts, and when done she speaks almost in a whispers. ]

I apologize if I made you feel bad, Eyes, and I do see what you mean with recklessness... But still, I do desire to do what I can for the world and the people who have been kind to me.

I understand that. [It's because he wanted to do what he could for the people who have helped him that he even asked in the first place.]

However, when it comes to myself... It might be for the better that I am not here, if it can't be stopped.

I would ask you why, but... but I know I cannot force you to tell me. [And she has no right to be pushy on him, what with all the secrets she still keeps.] I do recognize the patterns, however, because I and Nils once used to think the same...

[That was a name he was unfamiliar with, but he can refrain from asking questions of her for the moment. Considering the burden he may have just placed on her...]

... Tell me. Would you have expected something of this nature from me?

... No, I'm afraid not. Every time we met you were very quiet yet kind towards me, so even when I wondered if there were reasons behind such a behavior, I would have not guessed the depth of your sorrow...

And that is what makes it all the more dangerous. If this change were to take effect, I wouldn't be suspected. [It was all the more dangerous in his world—whereas he has at least tried to strangle his own network of influence here in the past year, back there he had a global audience at his beck and call.

Of course, strangling that net also meant he didn't have the support to make sure he could be stopped. It was all the worse when people still called him 'kind.']

[That would be very disturbing to her, if Ninian had access to such an information. But she doesn't, and so she can only think and act on what Eyes is telling her - words that imply something terrible that will affect not just him, but everyone in his surroundings.]

I see... You must be a very strong person, carrying all of this sorrow inside your heart, and yet still remaining calm and collected in the face of all our deaths and dangers.

[... It was almost funny, how she echoed the same sentiments as someone he once held the most dear.] There are those stronger than myself.

Truth be told, the life I have had here has been more peaceful than the one of my world.

... Maybe there are stronger people than us around, eyes, but it doesn't mean you are not stong in any way. Specially if your life has been as harsh as you say it was, whether here or not...

[At first Eyes doesn't respond—he knows he has to accept that, or the past three years of effort would be rendered futile. Fear simply made it that much easier to find reason not to.]

Maybe. But it is still my responsibility to use this strength to help and guide others, even if it means taking myself out of the equation.

I really wish there was a way to not have you taken out or away. It would be too sad to see you disappear, even if the reasons are powerful or reasonable enough...!

[... What is he supposed to say to such words? Was it so wrong that he was smiling, however small it was?]

The logic is sound, and it would be the safest and most secure route for everyone. But Ninian... I asked this because I have promises to uphold. I have every intention of continuing to do so.

[They have been his driving force the past several years, even amidst loneliness.] I may be a fool for it, but it is who I am.

[A fool who continued to hope for a blessing.]

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