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asgardeventide2013-05-05 09:34 pm
cancerousgeneticist) wrote in asgardeventide2013-05-05 09:34 pm
002 [Action&text]
[Karkat had become a hermit. A real life, for all intents and purposes, hermit.
He had been in Asgard for about a month, now, and only used his bracelet maybe twice. Mostly because all his friends are assholes. But also because he was afraid to.
is this what depression feels like?
maybe it was because of the nightmares he experienced his first night he entered the city, or maybe it was because the one person he actually wanted to talk to was ignoring him. Either way he hadn't left his room much since Nepeta set his nose a few weeks ago.
He lay on the floor of his block, surrounded by disarray; there was junk everywhere, from food items he had scrounged from mid-night scurries through the empty city. He didn't want to be seen in the dining hall, so he never went, opting to find food off trees or other, probably-not-safety-board-regulated sources. He had taken the sheets off his bed and had made a little nest in the center of the room, wrapping the blankets around him so only his ocular globes poked out from behind the fabric. Underneath, he wore nothing but his boxers, because it was hot under all the blankets, but he didn't want to sacrifice the safety of his little cocoon. Other things; papers, garbage, a random hairbrush, and some movies he had 'borrowed', were strewn around as well. Not that he had a TV to watch the movies, but he liked to read the backs of them and imagine if they were shit or not. They were probably all shit, he decided, but he still hoped 'Human Landon Carter' and 'Human Jaime Sullivan' end up together after all that community service. He also wondered what community service was.
is this what depression feels like?
He was actually getting pretty skinny. He could feel his breathing sack protectors through his skin, and he could imagine the bags under his eyes were worse than ever.
He stared at his bracelet. Though he hadn't contacted anyone in a long time he was still watching. He missed his idiot bestfriends. And his idiot ex-girlfriend-matesprit-person-thing. Terezi. But he was also scared to talk to them. He had looked like such an idiot before, with plans of escape. Of course they couldn't escape. As if he would have been a good enough leader to accomplish the task, anyways.
is this what depression feels like?
Half of him wanted to talk to them. Most of him wanted to say something. But all of him was saying he couldn't possibly.
He really needed a friend, right now.
Rolling onto his stomach, he poked a hand out and grabbed the infernal device of his loathing. It was always within arms reach but always so far away.
Fumbling with hands that shook and bony fingers he typed into the interface,typing a single word and hitting enter before throwing the terrible thing across the block once again.]
HELP.
this is what depression feels like.
He had been in Asgard for about a month, now, and only used his bracelet maybe twice. Mostly because all his friends are assholes. But also because he was afraid to.
is this what depression feels like?
maybe it was because of the nightmares he experienced his first night he entered the city, or maybe it was because the one person he actually wanted to talk to was ignoring him. Either way he hadn't left his room much since Nepeta set his nose a few weeks ago.
He lay on the floor of his block, surrounded by disarray; there was junk everywhere, from food items he had scrounged from mid-night scurries through the empty city. He didn't want to be seen in the dining hall, so he never went, opting to find food off trees or other, probably-not-safety-board-regulated sources. He had taken the sheets off his bed and had made a little nest in the center of the room, wrapping the blankets around him so only his ocular globes poked out from behind the fabric. Underneath, he wore nothing but his boxers, because it was hot under all the blankets, but he didn't want to sacrifice the safety of his little cocoon. Other things; papers, garbage, a random hairbrush, and some movies he had 'borrowed', were strewn around as well. Not that he had a TV to watch the movies, but he liked to read the backs of them and imagine if they were shit or not. They were probably all shit, he decided, but he still hoped 'Human Landon Carter' and 'Human Jaime Sullivan' end up together after all that community service. He also wondered what community service was.
is this what depression feels like?
He was actually getting pretty skinny. He could feel his breathing sack protectors through his skin, and he could imagine the bags under his eyes were worse than ever.
He stared at his bracelet. Though he hadn't contacted anyone in a long time he was still watching. He missed his idiot bestfriends. And his idiot ex-girlfriend-matesprit-person-thing. Terezi. But he was also scared to talk to them. He had looked like such an idiot before, with plans of escape. Of course they couldn't escape. As if he would have been a good enough leader to accomplish the task, anyways.
is this what depression feels like?
Half of him wanted to talk to them. Most of him wanted to say something. But all of him was saying he couldn't possibly.
He really needed a friend, right now.
Rolling onto his stomach, he poked a hand out and grabbed the infernal device of his loathing. It was always within arms reach but always so far away.
Fumbling with hands that shook and bony fingers he typed into the interface,typing a single word and hitting enter before throwing the terrible thing across the block once again.]
HELP.
this is what depression feels like.
threadjack! private;
H4V3 YOU FUCK1NG S33N H1M
threadjack; private
he looks like shit
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WHY WOULD H3 DO TH1S TO H1MS3LF >:'[
WHY WOULDNT H3 4SK FOR H3LP SOON3R
... 1T F33LS L1K3 MY F4ULT B3CAUS3 1 D1DNT CH3CK ON H1M
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probably didnt know it was happening till it was too late
thats a two way street tz
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H3 MUST H4V3 NOT 34T3N OR SL3PT 4T 4LL
UGH
W3 S4W 34CH OTH3R 1N TH3 D4YT3RRORS D4V3
W3 KN3W WH4T 34CH OTH3R W3NT THROUGH 4ND 1 ST1LL D1DNT CH3CK ON H1M B3C4US3 1 W4S FRUSTR4T3D >x[
BUT 1 KNOW FULL W3LL WH4T 3V3RYON3 3LS3 W4S D34L1NG W1TH
1S ST1LL D34L1NG W1TH TH4T DO3S NOT JUST L34V3 YOU 4FT3R 4 COLD DR1NK OF GRUBJU1C3 4ND 4 T4LK1NG TO FROM YOUR LUSUS
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dude could spew pea soup everywhere and it would probably look like a shitty sam raimi movie
[It's probably a good thing this is text; she can't see him wince.
He hasn't wanted to talk about the dreams.]
tz everyones dealing with it
did he check on you??
look he just needs someone to give him a swift kick in the ass
or bulge
whichever would get him the hell off of the bathroom floor and into a shower quicker
[He... hopes.]
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H3 P4SS3D OUT 1N TH3 SHOW3R
1 JUST FOUND H1M
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hes still breathing right
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"1LL G3T TO TH4T L4T3R" 1 S41D TO MYS3LF WH1L3 COZY1NG DOWN TO R34D WH4T W4S GO1NG ON 4ROUND TH3 N3TWORK, CH3CK MY M3SS4G3S, YOU KNOW HOW 1T 1S
Y3S H3S FUCK1NG BR34TH1NG
BUT NOT MUCH 3LS3
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try dumpin water on his face
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4LSO H3 W4S 1N TH3 FUCK1NG SHOW3R 1 TH1NK TH4T 1S 3NOUGH W4T3R 4S 1S
BUT HOW 4BOUT YOU 4LSO SUGG3ST 1 S3T H1M ON F1R3 1M SUR3 TH4T WOULD BE 3QU4LLY H3LPFUL
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anyway if you tried to light him on fire the water would just put it out
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YOU 4R3 B31NG THE OPPOS1T3 OF T4K1NG TH1S S3R1OUSLY 4T 4LL D4V3
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and he can either wrap himself up in some shitty blanket cocoon not shower for a week and listen to shitty accoustic rock about tears on guitars
or he can realize how shitty the shitty accoustic rock about tears on guitars is and go out and get a burger with his bros
assuming he knows what burgers are
anyway the choice was his to make and he made it
and you gotta realize that theres only so much you can do for somebody
[Okay, he may be going overboard. Regardless, he's on the move. Casually.]
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TWO
R3G4RDL3SS OF HOW CORR3CT YOU 4R3 4BOUT K4RK4TS L1K3L1HOOD TO H4V3 L1ST3N3D TO 4ND 3NJOY3D T4YLOR SW1FT MUS1C
YOUR L4CK OF SYMP4THY 1S 1NCR3D1BLY D1S4PPO1NT1NG 3SP3C14LLY COM1NG FROM SOM3ON3 WHO 1N R3C3NT M3MORY OPT3D TO L4Y F4C3 F1RST ON TH3 GROUND R4TH3R TH4N G3TT1NG UP 4ND B31NG PRO4CT1V3 1N TH3 F4C3 OF TR4G3DY
BUT 1 GU3SS TH3 F4CT TH4T NOT 3V3RYON3 C4N PR3T3ND TO B3 4S COOL 4ND UN3MOT1ON4L 4S YOU M4K3S TH3M NOT WORTH YOUR WH1L3 >:[
JUST CONT1NU3 B31NG COOL TH3N 1 GU3SS
FORG3T 1 4SK3D FOR H3LP!!!
reaction; 1/3
reaction; 2/3
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two i was totally ready to hop aboard the lets go help melodramatic assholes crawl out of their melodrama cave train but apparently its just left the station without me
its like it knew i had five thousand other things i would rather be doing with my time
hey do you still have that coin maybe we can flip it and see if i should bother racing to catch it
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BUT M4YB3 K4RK4T H4SNT M4D3 TH3 3L1T3 SUP3R SP3C14L CLUB KNOWN 4S P3OPL3 D4V3 STR1D3R COND3SC3NDS TO TOL3R4T3
BY 4LL M34NS 1M 4LL3G3DLY D4T1NG YOU 4ND 1 ST1LL 4PP4R3NTLY DONT R4T3 3NOUGH TO G3T SOM3 OF YOUR PR3C1OUS T1M3
SO WHY WOULD K4RK4T 1TS NOT L1K3 YOU 3V3N L1K3 34CH OTH3R
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are you done yet
plz say yes
because i think if i have to listen to any more of this bullshit after i mosey my ass over there
i might have to resort to branding my eardrums with a red hot poker
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1N F4CT 1 TH1NK TH4TS TH3 MOST PRODUCT1V3 TH1NG YOUV3 SUGG3ST3D 4LL N1GHT, D4V3!!!!
1 CORD14LLY 1NV1T3 YOU TO SHOW UP 4T MY H1V3 L4T3R 4ND 1 W1LL P3RSON4LLY 4SS1ST YOU IN C4RV1NG TH3 WORDS '1NSUFF3R4BL3 PR1CK' 1NTO YOUR SMUG FUCK1NG FOR3H34D
1LL 3V3N DROP MY QU1RK B3C4US3 F1RSTLY THR33S 4R3 H4RD TO C4RV3
4ND S3CONDLY YOUR STUP1D F4C3 1S UND3S3RV1NG OF TH3 NUM3R4LS OF TH3 BL1ND PROPH3TS
'INSUFFERABLE PRICK'
S33
TH4T W1LL B3 YOUR F4C3 D4V3
FOR3V3R
4N 3T3RN4L R3M1ND3R OF YOUR 1NF4NT1L1L3 S3LF OBS3SS1ON DR1PP1NG D3L1C1OUS C4NDY R3D 1NTO YOUR OCUL4R GLOB3S THUS BL1ND1NG YOU FROM SO MUCH 4S LOOK1NG 1NTO TH3 M1RROR 4ND B31NG STRUCK W1TH 3V3N TH3 SM4LL3ST 4MOUNT OF S3LF 3X4M1N4T1ON OR 4NY FORM OF CR1T1C4L TH1NK1NG TH4T M1GHT G1V3 YOU P4US3 4BOUT YOUR M4NN3R OF 1NT3R4CT1ON W1TH TH3 P3OPL3 4ROUND YOU
NOT TH4T 1 C4N S4Y FROM 3XP3R13NC3 TH4T YOUR OP1N1ON OR TR34TM3NT OF YOURS3LF 1S TH4T MUCH B3TT3R
SO 1 DONT KNOW WH4T 1 3XP3CT3D R34LLY
FUCK YOU TOO D4V3
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not the numerals of the blind prophets
anything but the numerals of the blind prophets
what will i do without that annoying and excessive use of 1s 3s and 4s in my life
except fall into a spiralling depression like little timmy down the goddamn well
hey little man what are you doing down there
oh nothing im just chillin down here
waiting for some dumbass kids to watch my dumb movie
7 fucking days bitches
7 fucking days
look
i was on my way to comin over there to slap some sense into him like a doctor slappin a babys ass
but it looks like you got everything under control
so im just gonna turn myself around and ollie the fuck out of here
go ahead and get your kissyspades on
or whatever corner of troll foursquare it is
thanks for the invite to this party
but im out
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1N F4CT 1 N3V3R 3V3N B3L13V3D YOU W3R3 COM1NG 4NYW4Y SO DONT WORRY 4BOUT TH4T 31TH3R >:[
FURTH3RMOR3 1 DONT S33 WH4T MY SP4D3S H4V3 TO DO W1TH TH1S 4T 4LL
FOR SOM3ON3 WHO H4S SUCH STRONG D1SD41N FOR QU4DR4NTS YOU SUR3 DO BR1NG TH3M UP 4 LOT D4V3
1S TH3R3 SOM3TH1NG YOU 4R3NT T3LL1NG M3??????????
DO3S TH4T SOM3TH1NG P3RT41N 1N 4NY W4Y TO WH4T 4N 1NS3NS1T1V3 DOUCH3 YOU 4R3
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as a matter of fact im expecting an ice cold bottle of aj
theres one waiting for me in my fridge
cherry aint even popped
jesus my shades are fogging just thinking of it
[Pointedly not approaching the last part.]
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W3LL
WH1L3 YOU G3T YOUR ROCKS OFF ON 4 SQU33Z3D FRUIT B3V3R4G3
1M GO1NG TO 4CTU4LLY DO SOM3TH1NG US3FUL 4ND H3LP OUR FR13ND OUT
SO TH3R3S TH4T