[Oh they were immortal in hers too. Valefar done fucked up real bad to get himself ded. It was really complicated.]

It sounds almost as if part of this is regret as much as it does jealousy, really, and a loathing of yourself. I... can relate a little, though not completely.

But... I don't want to give you false hope. Just, remember this. I was given a vision once that my whole world was destroyed, only to go back and find out I was wrong. So, don't completely lose hope. Blood can be replaced.