[The Doctor's words will only bring silence on Soushi's end as he simply ponders over the meaning behind his words. To face his fears, and do the opposite? The thought will only bring a smirk out of his lips along with a dark sounding chuckle. He couldn't help it. It was said to him before how being nervous and self-conscious will cause one to laugh. But, he was not laughing at the Doctor's words, instead he was laughing at the irony of his situation. It was just like the past. Will his past be repeated within this world? The thought alone will cause him to lose his current expression as he continues to ponder. What is he to do? He did not wish to face himself nor his past. Then again, the Doctor isn't exactly telling him to do this. He was just giving him advise on the best way to enjoy the world by doing do without fear. A forced smile will appear.]
Face everything? [Again, he will simply stare and continue to ponder.] ...only a human will be able to do this. A normal one. [That was all he could say because he cannot help realize he did not truly understand the meaning of being courageous. Only how to survive by manipulating, using, and acting. His whole life is mostly based on these three principals.]
Ririchiyo-sama would be able to do as you say, as well. But...I am not her. We are not alike. Unlike her, I am a pathetic and emotionless soul, who has always ran away in life. I have never once faced any true hurdles within my lifetime. All I have ever done within my life is destroy whenever someone stood in the way of my current goals. To destroy, it is all I am capable of doing. [Pause.] ...I am a terrible person. I do not understand the proper way to live or interact with others without having a reason to use them. My life is all a lie, Time Lord-sama. Only Ririchiyo-sama has the power to force me to face anything without fear because I always knew...she would not leave me. She would always remain by my side, and hold my hand. I am useless without her.
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Face everything? [Again, he will simply stare and continue to ponder.] ...only a human will be able to do this. A normal one. [That was all he could say because he cannot help realize he did not truly understand the meaning of being courageous. Only how to survive by manipulating, using, and acting. His whole life is mostly based on these three principals.]
Ririchiyo-sama would be able to do as you say, as well. But...I am not her. We are not alike. Unlike her, I am a pathetic and emotionless soul, who has always ran away in life. I have never once faced any true hurdles within my lifetime. All I have ever done within my life is destroy whenever someone stood in the way of my current goals. To destroy, it is all I am capable of doing. [Pause.] ...I am a terrible person. I do not understand the proper way to live or interact with others without having a reason to use them. My life is all a lie, Time Lord-sama. Only Ririchiyo-sama has the power to force me to face anything without fear because I always knew...she would not leave me. She would always remain by my side, and hold my hand. I am useless without her.